Cold Nostalgia❤

About an occasion when my best friend betrayed me ...

2012-02-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

Flashes of nostalgia fleet past in my mind as I flipped through my photo album of happier times with Phoebe, my best friend. My first became clenched purple with rage and hurt as I recollected how she betrayed me ...

It was Christmas's Eve, I was in a dilemma as to whether should I attend a class reunion dinner for all our Secondary 5 classmates at one of the famous restaurants at Orchard Road. Stepping into the restaurants, I sensed something was not right. Instinctively, I noticed my boyfriend, Jacob, was behaving mysteriously weird. He was ill at ease and kept fidgeting about. My best friend, Phoebe, seemed animated and was making slight glances at him. I silently observed them for awhile. By which time, Phoebe had approached us.

It was quite a while before my boyfriend found his voice. Finally, Phoebe said 'Hi!' to him and me. She acknowledge that they are kiddy sweethearts. When I heard that, I was struck by the thunder bolt. Dumb fonder, I felt awkward. Phoebe was extremely delighted to have reunited with Jacob. She began to flirt with him openly, as if I were invisible.

To be continued ...

2012-02-14T20:09:00.003+08:00

HeartStrings❤

Heartstrings (Hangul: 넌 내게 반했어, Romanized: Neon Naege Banhaesseo , literally: You've Fallen for Me, previously known as Festival and You're into Me) is a South Korean youthful melodrama about the main characters' love, friendship and dreams, set against the backdrop of an arts university. It is also aired in ABS-CBN, a Philippine Broadcasting Company.

Actor	Character
Jung Yong Hwa	Lee Shin	Kevin
Park Shin-hye	Lee Gyu Won	Nicole
Song Chang Ui	Kim Suk Hyun	Director Brandon
So Yi Hyun	Jung Yoon Soo	Professor Yvonne
Kang Min Hyuk	Yeo Joon Hee	Nigel
Lee Hyun Jin	Hyun Ki Young	Jason
Im Se Mi	Cha Bo Woon	Mela

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Fairytales 童话 ❤

Plot Outline	Singapore, a country which has achieved tremendous wonders and successes that many other countries can only dream of, is regarded by most as a fairytale land. It boasts world-class accomplishments in every field that it embarks on, and its people enjoy the privilege of living in a First World city built by its visionary and hardworking leaders. With housing, employment, education, healthcare and t...
Starring	Royston Ong / Siona Wu Murphy / Yogendra Santhiran / Louis Fong / Maguire Jian / S. Gunasegaran / Guest Starring: Maia Lee / Leena Salim / Chen Shu Cheng
Directed By	Kelvin Sng

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Storm.

2012-02-09T22:21:00.001+08:00

'Ring!' the class bell rang. It happened to be our last period of the day. Suddenly, the ominous blackness of the sky became more and more immerse ; ultimately it swallowed the whole sky. All of the students, including me, felt that something bad was impending. The wind blew across the road, though the trees sending newspapers and dried leaves whirling across the roads. The heavens could not hold on any more. The squall broke!

The torrential ran poured ferociously. All of us were caught in this tremble storm. We were soaked thoroughly, suddenly, a white of streak flashed across the dark sky lightening up petrified faces. Followed by a loud explosion, sending my two friends into a shrieking outburst. We were trembling from fear, hunger and fatigue ...

Impetuously, a strong gust of wind blew across our faces, bringing sprays of droplets of water onto our faces. We ducked to avoid being drenched. Umbrellas, books, school bags and files etc were used to camouflage against the deluge of water.

Traffic began to pile up. Vehicles started to hog the road, as water from the overflowing drains began to flood the road, making it inaccessible to traffic. We began to panic as dirt, dried leaves, flotsam of all kinds drifted off the dirty drains onto road, swirling around our feet. Creating an irksome feeling.

The momentous storm caused flash flooding in several areas. Incumbled and helpless we stood waiting for a bus that would never arrive. My friend started to cry softly. Desperate, I took out my mobile phone and called the police for help.

The flood waters rose and rose, within minutes it reached our knees. The traffic congestion did not ease. In a few minutes, we were totally engulfed by the obnoxious odour of vehicles' exhaust. Slowly, low vehicles began to stall. Drivers began to disembark their vehicles and abandon their cars.

Instinctively, my friends and I decided to take a chance. We braved through the flood waters and headed towards the direction of the nearby shopping mall. Getting into an elevated building was the ingenuous solution to the problem.

With swishing rain and whirling wind we trodded on till we reached dry gorund. By which time, it was late into the evening, famished and exhausted, we called our parents as the terrontial, unabated storm still raged on ...

Consequences of a matter ...

2012-02-02T23:18:00.008+08:00

Hihi !!! I'm back from the celebration of 'Chinese New Year 2012' ~

This year the feeling were kinda different as compared to the previous years.

This year it was our first time that both mum and I cried,

on one of those days when we were at M'sia ...

After all, it was a long story ~

But this doesn't meant that my family broke up into pieces. NO! Never !

From this argument, we (parents and I) learned quite a lot of things.

How to tolerate with one another? How to share things/thoughts when we in need? Etc...

Had a H2H with mum! I love having H2H with her!

I also benefited from this major Chinese event !

I managed to find most of my M'sia friends or cousins in Facebook ! :)

Received my very first birthday present from GrandPa ... Cash !!! ❤

Hmmm ...

After I got back from M'sia, quite a few things happened in S'pore which I don't know.

Had steamboat with my usual cliques @ my house!

(yx, dap, gwen, shihui, jiahao, wenhao, jc, willy, kendrick)

These should be it ...

Hahahaha, had a lot of fun during/before/after this steamboat.

Most of us were sick except for me, dap and shihui which I do not know why. Heehee^^

Back to school life ! And I quit my job mainly due to having O' levels this year.
Before I left, had a mini farewell for HuiQing !

Siglap outlet was a BIG change during my working experience in work life.

Celebrated Shihui's (020212) and Yx's (030212) birthdays yesterday !

Went to Airport to have our dinner and etc ...

Shall end here ... Have to do something else ... Tctc ... Will update soon !~ ❤

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Grandsons (Mother Side) Miss out my brother only ~ ❤

Daughters & Sons (Mother Side) ~ ❤

Summary Photo of CNY @ M'sia ! ❤

Steamboat @ my house ! ❤

School life !~ ❤

Shihui & YinXuen ! ❤

Mini Farewell For HuiQing ! ❤

What a 'long' delay :)

2012-01-20T00:37:00.000+08:00

Last update was on 16 December 2011 and currently is 19 January 2012 !

Heehee ~ What a 'long' delay :)

Today I'm gonna say what I've done during my 2months plus holiday...

After my N' level till present...

Went back to Cartel as a crew, at the offset of December I became the Barista Trainee...

At least I learned a new skill... During that training period, I'm totally not my own...

Being pressurize by the Manager and all!

I really have to thanks that guy who taught me all about Bar,

during my trainee period! Also, he covered up for me and etc... Like him a lot !!!

I think I'm gonna quit Cartel soon, majority of the crew that are from TM cartel wants to...

During the 2months long holiday, I didn't went back to M'sia...

Almost everyday I'm working(all morning shift), then evening went out with friends...

To chalet, exercising, Graduation Day, attractions, lights display at Orchard,

Steamboat at friend's house, Shopping, Titanic Exhibition, Kbox, X'mas party and a lot more...

Collected my N'level result on 19 December 2011...

I should say that day was a close shave for the rest and me !

I didn't get any single U ! Heehee ! ~ 17 points :(

I expected much more higher :( Got promoted to Secondary5 this year... O' level 2012 !

*FIGHTING FIGHTING !* Received quite a lot of X'mas present this year ! :)

Right now, 2 more days and it's Chinese New Year ! That's fast !!!

Bought CNY preparations, things, goodies, new clothes and shoes :)

Going back to M'sia for 4 and a halve days...

My aim for this year CNY is to get 500$ and more angbao money !

and ...

Get all my M'sia cousins and friends facebook account :) heehee ~

I shall stop here ... Will B_ _ _ ASAP !!! Tctc !

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012' ❤

Graduation Day !~

The Helix Bridge !~

Kbox !~

X'mas Streets Display !~

Haw Par Villa with Cartel Friends !~

LI LEI❤ my 师父 during my Bar training !~

X'mas Biscuits !~

Relative gathering !~

CNY decorations !~

SuHui, Gwendolynn, Yinxuen identical rings !~

Rainbow Sweetheart VS MY GIRL ~ !

2011-12-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

Movies Of November ❤

2011-12-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

23:59 (PG13/Horror Theme & Disturbing Scenes)

Cast: Mark Lee, Henley Hll, Josh LaiDirector: Gilbert ChanGenre:Horror/ Thriller

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Tower Heist (PG13/Coarse Language & Sexual References)

Cast: Ben Stiller, Eddie Murphy, Matthew BroderickDirector: Brett RatnerGenre:Action/ Comedy

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Your Are The Apple Of My Eye

(NC16/Coarse Language & Sexual References)

Cast: Chen-Tung Ko, Michelle Chen, Ao-ChuanDirector: Giddens KoGenre:Romance/ Comedy

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The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1

(PG13/Disturbing Scenes)

Cast: Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart, Taylor LautnerDirector: Bill CondonGenre:Drama/ Romance

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Legendary Amazons

Main cast :

Cecilia Cheung, Richie Ren, Cheng Pei-pei, Liu Xiaoqing

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Series Of Events During Holiday ...

2011-11-12T23:36:00.004+08:00

30days has passed since N'level finished, 30days has not seen you. I miss the time when we are together, all the jokes we talked about in school. Today is Saturday - second last day of second week in the month of November. Time files so fast. Heehee ... Today I'm going to share about what I have done so far during the holiday. Mid-October ---> went out with cliques for interview, badminton, exploring Singapore (The Helix Bridge) and applying of citizenship. Of course I did not forgotten, 31Nov - 1Nov had birthday outing (Dap, Gwen, Willy, Wenhao) with Namira, Reegena, JiaHao, Kendrick and Brian :) Heehee ... I miss that outing and the chance to swim inside the chalet pool ! :) ❤ Started working on 3Nov at Siglap outlet (The Cafe Cartel), met new friends (Aunty Priscilla, Jin, HuiMei, Nick, ZhangHua, Ah Liau, XiaoChen, Daniel and etc) so far I only did 37 hours of working :( SO LITTLE ! I need more working hours ! Thanks to parents I can't work night shift. Sobbed ~ ! Hahaha, next week shall take a photoshot with cartel stuff and my design of the the Christmas Tree :) Beginning of November ---> went out with cliques for badminton, cycling, movie and lunch/dinner. Next week plenty of events going to happen. I'm going to attend Graduation Day ... Outing with cliques again ... I want to go out with SUHUI !!! Joline, Xavier, Gwendolynn, Namira, Daphane, Willy, Jiahao, Kendrick, Esther, Reegena, YiLing, Jiayee, Jessica, Primary school friends (Classmates / Volleys), DINIE, Hendra ... Shall start to write love letters before Graduation Day :) Also, I want to share a story :)

I was panting and puffing and my heart was thumping so rapidly that it almost popped out. My girlfriend, Nikita, felt the same as well. I clutched her hands in a death grip as we were running away from the weird pursuers. We ended up in a place that looked like a cemetery which seemed like an illusion to us. Despite the fact that our legs turned wobbly and about to give way, we could not stop in our escape though we wanted very badly to avoid those creepy and spooky creatures!

Nikita and I were getting excited as exuberance bubbled in us. The Halloween event was held at the Universal Stuidos Singapore. Upon arriving at USS, I could hear the cacophony of lively music drawing us into the themepark. Without noticing we had stepped into the themepark, we arrived at one of the famous attractions --- the Halloween 'live' stage --- for the grand opening of the Halloween season.

Once the performance ended, some creatures from behind the stage popped out and walked towards the stunned audience. More and more creepy creatures popped out from the side and behind as well. The two of us were extremely shocked to see them appearing with some sort of special Halloween costumes and strange make-up. The audience inevitably screamed in sheer fright. "It was a fright night!", shouted by Nikita. We felt an impending vicious and scary commotion going to occur earlier. To our utter shock, a group of those creepy creatures appeared carrying some kind of saw sets that could hurt people. Due to those dangerous weapons that they were holding to, people did not dare to get close to them. Mean time, the crowd went berserk.

On our second thought, while some of these creepy creatures were chasing us, we held one another hands and ran straight down the high slope road in a hysterical note. We reached a tranquil place where there was no one. We could only find a single pathway which was our only hope out. It seemed like a roller coaster track. The next moment, a roller car rattled in. We had no choice but to ride on it. Our hearts were thumping fast and our hands were clammy with cold sweat. The roller car moved ant the speed of it went extremely high. We passed through the dark tunnel, displayed with horror figures and digital photos of dead bodies. The ride was a movement of swift fluid. The roller coaster track was full of ascending and descending loops. The roller car came to a stop on the track .....

All of a sudden, a group of creepy and spooky creatures came out to scare us, whom popped out of no where. After the petrified, they left the car. It started to move again. This time round a flat platform brought us to the top of the building. A piece of wire then connected to the roller car as though like a cable car. The plan and ride were very smoothly. Sooner or later, our roller car turned into a cable car. Just about to reach the landing platform the wire 'SNAP' ! Luckily, below it was a sea platform. It was not a difficult task for us as we have been trained before. At that defining moment, due to that great fall from the high height. The organization called out the rescue team. We were brought up safely back to shore. They apologized to us by giving us a one night stand at one of their Resort World Hotel. After all, we had a wonderful and adventurous day!

Movie marathon 3 ❤ ~

2011-10-24T15:20:00.005+08:00

美少女啦啦队4 Bring It On: In It to Win It

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冰雪公主 Ice Princess

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暮色 Twilight

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暮色2：新月 New Moon

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暮色3：月食 The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

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Living in this world could hardly bring freedom and

joy to me after what had happened last year.

Or should I say ... In this country called Singapore.

I thought more than once what I had done or should I do about my past,

present and in fact future.

All the mistakes I had done,

had totally pushes me to my limit where I hang on right there,

by my own without any defense or help by others.

Even if I got bitten real hard, I cannot even attack back.

The pain I had suffered, no one could imagine or had suffered from it.

Before all these incident happened, the instinct of mine would tell me so.

By dreams or something else.

Ongoing Drama ❤ ~

2011-10-18T01:36:00.000+08:00

尼基塔第一季 Nikita Season 1

导演：Barbara Fiorentino

演员： Xander Berkeley / Maggie Q / Tiffany Hines / Aaron Stanford / Shane West / Melinda Clarke
类型：剧情
首映：2010年9月9日美国

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尼基塔第二季 Nikita Season 2

导演：Barbara Fiorentino
演员：Xander Berkeley / Tiffany Hines / Aaron Stanford / Shane West / Melinda Clarke

类型：剧情
首映：2011年9月23日美国

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Movie marathon 2 ❤ ~

2011-10-17T12:09:00.005+08:00

大学新生 Sydney White

导演：乔·努斯鲍姆
演员： 阿曼达·拜恩斯 / 马特·郎 / 萨拉·帕克斯顿
类型：喜剧 / 美国 / 大学 / 恶搞到底

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毕业舞会 Prom

导演：乔·努斯鲍姆
演员： Thomas McDonell / 艾米·缇加登 / 丹妮尔·帕娜贝克 / Nolan Sotillo / Yin Chang
类型：喜剧

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伴娘复仇记 Revenge of the Bridesmaids

导演：James Hayman
演员： 雷文·西蒙尼 / 乔安娜·加西亚 / 弗吉尼亚·威廉姆斯
类型：爱情 / 喜剧
首映：2010年7月18日美国
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Movie marathon 1 ❤ ~

2011-10-16T20:39:00.002+08:00

足球尤物She's the Man

导演：Andy Fickman
演员： 阿曼达·拜恩斯 / 劳拉·莱姆希 / 查宁·塔图姆
类型：爱情 / 喜剧

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倒霉爱神Just My Luck

导演：唐纳德·佩特瑞
演员：林赛·洛翰 / 克里斯·派恩
类型：爱情 / 美国 / 合作频道 / 中录

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水瓶座女孩What a Girl Wants

导演：Dennie Gordon

演员：艾琳·阿特金斯 / Anna Chancellor / Tara Summers

类型：爱情 / 家庭 / 歌舞 / 喜剧

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A Truth That Is Awaiting...

2011-10-13T02:10:00.001+08:00

HaRLo ~ Finally I could sit down on my chair peacefully and B _ _ _ after my continuous of examination last week and of course I ended my last paper last Monday. Due to some reasons, my mood totally dropped from a great height instead of going upwards (Hyper and etc). I supposed to meet Namira and Gwendolynn in the afternoon on Monday. Because of my last paper I met them in the evening. Hmmm... Around 5plus or so, I guessed. This is why I only appeared after some photos that are being taken at Kbox. Headed down to H&M (not HIM, that's a music recorded company), followed by Bugis the next stop. I did not bought anything through out the trip but the two girls did. When the day comes near to the evening - night, met the usual guys for movie (Real Steel). A gamer would love it definitely! For me, it was a great movie. Some of the scenes was really so touched that I almost cried. Sobbed ~


Taken From real-steel ❤

Cast: Hugh Jackman, Evangeline Lilly, Dakota Goyo
Director: Shawn Levy

Movie ended around 11.15pm? Forgotten. Around there. Gwen went home after the movie while I followed the rest to MacDonald to have dinner-supper. Although the starting of our conversation was a bit bored but overall it was fine. I did not talked much, maybe I'm not in the mood that's why. Left MacDonald about 3-4am in the morning, we should have waited for breakfast at 4.30am. Hahaha. Just joking. Surprisingly, my parents did not called me. Is that called lucky? Hmmm... Maybe... Walked home instead of walking to my house, I walked towards the poor guy home. Gotten a cab at the bus-stop. Nothing happened after I got home. Ended my day just like this. Next day, because of boredom. I went to do foot spa and pedicure around block200plus. After that went to find Joline for dinner, went home straight after meal. I WANT EAT BLACK CHICKEN! Heehee. Another day just wasted like that. Aww ~ How sad is that. Unfortunately, yesterday I had a boring day in school as well. Did some administration stuff, then remaining hours we used laptop at Computer Lab3. How boring is that. Maybe today the same procedure might repeat again. Shall stop here, if not I cannot wake up later on for school O(∩_∩)O~ Nights & Good Morning... Tctc... Shall B _ _ _ soon.

The Feelings Towards You Cannot Be Changed ...

2011-10-08T19:21:00.000+08:00

N'level is ending soon, two more days and that is it. Hopefully, Monday there's good news saying that the following days no need to go back to school. If it's really no need after N'level our friendship might be over or end as well too. I'm looking at the bright side, where after N'level we still can meet-up or outing. Heehee^^ It's ok. Recently, I thought of a lot things. Will I benefit in the future, if I stop working now? Maybe? Maybe not? Right now, my position is I cannot work. If I really do, I do not have a second chance to see you again. Some decision is not me make the deal. I don't want to leave you, away from your side. Hopefully that will not happened. Today, I very super duper free so I did some photos on lollipopF and updated my WRETCHShall update soon ... ablum ... heehee ...

One more week ...

2011-10-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

Just a short post to keep my blog updated. Time files so fast and now it's already EOY already. Left 1week and 3days, examinations are over. Break starts immediately after exams for most of the students taking N'levels. Don't know whether I shall go back to school after the examinations. Left with Combine Science(mon), NAmath P1(tues), Amath P1(Weds), NAmath(P2) & Geo(Thurs), AmathP2(Fri) and D&T(next mon). After this 1week or so, we might or might not meet again(maybe when collecting of results and in the future). If both of us get promoted that's called fate and luck of course,I should say. If not buaibuai. But I really hope both of us can get promoted. I do not want our friendship just end like this :) Shall end here. After the examinations I shall update again.

Maybe It Is Destiny ...

2011-09-25T22:25:00.003+08:00

Shall post for a while. Just wanted to say about this. Recently, found a good pair of tutor. Heehee ~ Both of them is husband and wife. They are kind soul, treat their students in very good conditions :) Soup feed us with food and studies. They think for our future and even I failed my government N'levels they suggested me to take private. NO! I won't failed the government N'level. Lols! I like being with them. Heehee ~ *Jokes and Laughter* I forgotten something. Today he made the first move. Hahaha. Shall post what I did today. Woke up in the afternoon, lappy for a while then head down to MRT to meet Joline. I was late so I treated her Eskime -.- Went to Popeye for lunch at Century Square with Joline, while having lunch she saw her friend and she went ... LOLS ... Had Popeye, next stop went to meet Dinie and Hendra for study. Heehee. *Jokes and Laughter* Took bus with Dinie to Inter, while Hendra headed home. Did not expected him to take the first move to sit beside me in the bus. Miracles :) Tctc everyone. Good luck for those who are taking N'level. Left one more week and that is it :)

My New Personal Room ...

2011-09-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

As I wanted to blog. Heehee. I shifted back to my grandma's room. She's not living in Singapore as frequently as before so I shifted to her room :) And made that room to be my personal room. I used 45 minutes to clear and packed everything neatly, in order, just to make things orderly. At last, I got my own room, own bed and own TV. But the wardrobe still contains grandma's stuff. Never mind. It's ok. Shall stopped here. I want to sleep earlier. Shall blog soon ~ Tctc... ❤

The past and present ...

2011-09-17T21:00:00.001+08:00

Thinking of the past and now? Did I changed? Did I became a more cheerful or just living as someone to fulfill someone's wish? No matter is a kid or until teenager. All is about fulfilling other people's wish. I just do not get it. Having a dream and doing what I wanted only can be fulfilled after I'm 21years old. I just hate my current life. I hate being a 16years old kid. I hate being a student in Normal Academic. I hate being said by others about my academics, I nearly wanted to slap/beat that BASTARDS back. I hate by not having freedom when I'm working. I hate being beaten by someone who used violence on me. I hate being in Singapore in the first place. I hate it when all of this happened on me, I just cannot express or show it out. This is life! No! If they never brought me to Singapore all of this would not happened on me. Why others have the luxury to enjoy what they wanted and requested for? And I'm here fulfilling my parents wish as a good girl?! I promised myself. I will settle everything after my exams, N'levels. No matter what ways or methods I used, all these burdens of mine will vanish and disappear. No one knows how much I had suffered.

The TroubleSome Relative❤

2011-08-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

An ominous moment broke out as the weather suddenly changed for the worse. Claps of thunder cracked the skies when I got home. All of a sudden, it started to rain. My mother told me to help her collect those clothes that were out of dry. Meanwhile, she purposely released a breaking news from my father who went to Korea. The bad news was that he was going to bring a visitor back home and it happened to be my second aunt who was my father's sister. Her name was called Aunt Lucy, a most dreaded name. In fact, a mere mention of her name sent shivers down my spines...

She finally came. Disaster had begun. My parents allowed her to stay over at our home due to some reasons. Worse, Aunt Lucy and I were arranged to sleep in the same room! When I got back from my shower, I saw her using my computer without asking for permission first. Deliberately, I ignored her and carried on with my own stuff. During lunch time, she introduced herself. At that moment she was very polite and friendly. That did not last too long as, in no time, she transformed into another person. Aunt Lucy ate the food on the dining table with her bare hands in a disgusting manner, treating our home as her own home. Not only this, after lunch she quickened her pace towards the television set. Her actions made me boils. I told my parents about this matter but they told me to endure with her for a few days before she would head back to Korea.

That night I did not slept well because of her loud and disturbing snoring sound. At that juncture, I could not stay up with her anymore. I thought of some cunning ways to shoo her away back home. The following day, I told this mater to my schoolmates and they planned something good to make her leave. They all planned to stay overnight at my house for four days, a make over party in my room. While my parents went overseas at Malaysia for four days. On the second night, we discussed for a short while when we were out for supper at one of the restaurants nearby. When we reached home, she happened to be outside. Out of curiosity, we opened her luggage to see what was inside like what she did to my personal stuff without asking permission earlier. Deliberately, we placed her belongings everywhere in a chaotic manner in the room.

We carried on with our day at the living room playing games having fun. She came home, adjourning to her room. To her utter shock, the room was like a garbage dump! She questioned me about it but I did not know anything as I was at the living room all along. Aunt Lucy ignored it and headed back to arrange her items. We giggled for a short while, next morning which was her third stay at my house she found drawings on her face that could not be removed. On the fourth day, which was my parents arrival from their trip, Aunt Lucy told them about this incident. I of course did not admit it. She told my parents she would be leaving on the fifth day as she could not put up with the wrong doings anymore. I was overwhelmed with the news. Instead of getting scolding from my parents, they did not say a single word to me because they knew I wanted to drive her away! Within me, there was a glow of light as that made me laugh snigger deep inside my heart!

A fragile bond.

2011-08-27T23:03:00.001+08:00

Ever since that incident happened.
It's like my life had turned upside down.
They made my life changed.
The bond between a father and a daughter has changed.
They made me a different person who has suffered from a great pain.
I never regretted what I had done because I was not the wrong one,
I always agreed with my own actions.
19aug 2011 was a day that I knew very clearly about my situation or even position at home.
I always had family problem but no one believed it.
They always thought it's all normal what a child has to go through.
Children are not always at fault.
From this incident they proved to me that they did not believe me from the beginning.
From that day I hate living in this family.
No one understands my situation right now.
Because you have not suffered from it before.
After that incident I felt so unusual.
Some how or rather I going insane like committing suicide
but I knew I could not just wasted off my life like this, in this kind of manner.
This is why I chose to lived on and made my life simple as before.
My feelings and thoughts are in a mess.
After n'level I will handled it with care.
Right now, I just want to avoid it.

Burdens & thoughts❤

2011-08-14T00:54:00.005+08:00

HaRlo ! Today I am going to share my thoughts and feelings, things that happened around me. Recently, just finished my "EL, SS,Amath(P1) prelims" & "DnT practical of N'level". At last, no need to stay back after school for dnt. Muhahahaha ~ Ok, back to topic. Did not do very well for my Amath paper1. *SOBBED! BECAUSE OF MY DNT I DID NOT REVISED AT ALL* I'm afraid I might get single digit this time round. More papers are awaiting for me. Lots of things happened no matter it is in relationship, friendship, work place, studies or even family. The biggest problem I had is MONEY! I spent $70 within two days. How great I can be :(

Firstly, it is relationship. Can he stop giving me hope? Can he stop treating me so well? I will tend to change my direction of love. I hate to have a crush on him because loving him is such a painful thing. Because out of no reason I will cry and misses him. I'm totally in a confusion situation.

Secondly, it is friendship. Last Tuesday went out with JAM(Gwendolynn) & BUTTER(HO SU HUI). Heehee^^ Our internal joke. LOL! Went out to celebrate butter birthday at TM (lunch, movie, window shopping and slack at her house). We chat a lot of things among us because it has been a long time we did not catch up with one another. After all, the three of us struckup a good conversation. Talked about relationship, friendship and family matters. *Sad, laughter and jokes.* Hahahaa. Gwendolynn and her FULLSTOP! LOL!

Thirdly, it is workplace. Last few days I heard a breaking news from some of the stuff which is CafeCartel is closing down soon. I was like WTF ! WHY?! I have not learn the skills of bartender yet! My dream ARGH! Not only this my income will stop coming in. Of course I get upset after hearing this. I messaged the manager and she told me it was because of rental problem :( everyone(all the stuff) was upset about this matter. I quickly grabbed the last chance of working at CafeCartel. All the memories, laughter and joy in it will vanish next Friday.

*Doreen, Melody, Michelle, Nick, Aileen, Rave, XueBo, ChunChun, HanBing, FeiWang, Austin, GuiXiang, Yonngwei, Jevy Brian, Mamam, Ahmed, Deon, JiaLe, Kai Jing, June, Serene, Barbara, Arron, Kimie. (1st Month)*

*Aishah, GuiWei, Ahming, Shawn, HuiQing, Don, Winnie, Sheeleng, Stephanie, HuiQi, Vanessa, Ivy, Julie(2nd month) and etc.*

Fourth, it is studies. Prelims and N'level are around the corner. Preparation started. Be coming more serious and serious. Unlike some people(not going to name out who it is). I must get Top18 this year for Prelims and N'level. This shall be my target :) Hopefully my weakest subject will become my powerful ones.

Lastly, it is family. Family matter are like mountain hills that high. Recently, my maid went back to agency. Troublesome matter! Mum in charge of house work, sometimes I help out. Grandma went back to Malaysia because no one taking care of her. The worse thing is ... what's that call ??? ... washing machine ! SPOILED ! ARGH ! Troublesome! Always arguing with parent due to my bed -.- I WANT MY OWN BEDROOM ! Treating me like a small kid ! Am I that small ?!

Display❤

2011-08-13T00:16:00.002+08:00

Do you still remember this ?

These fragile crystals are gifts to my good friends :)

This was the very first item made by me.

To my lovely senior Vivian.

However, I found out she dropped onto the floor later on.

In the end, she have to redo the product again by her own.

2nd item was a crane to Daphane as a birthday present^^

I should by the black one. That colour has glitter on it.

Haish ~

3rd items was a blue dolphin swimming in the sea.

For Suhui's birthday present recently.

This took me a long time.

because I dropped it onto the group when I wanted to combine it together.

So disappointed to myself.

Just now, I pass by a shop where these similar items are placed on the display shelf.

Lights shone onto them causing the crystal to shine brightly.

I WANT MORE AND MORE OF THESE ITEMS !

But the cost of it is shocking ! haish ~

I wonder when will I buy the fourth product :) ❤

Grotesque Slide with odd surfaces❤

2011-07-31T00:01:00.002+08:00

Even though I knew I was going to be in a sea of peril, she still helped me with her meagre support.

She thought with an irresolute mindset for few seconds.
In the meantime, we stood in tranquility in front of the high wall of convent, and the barred door.
Strangely, someone from behind called our names.

The smell of cigarette went up from my body to my nostrils.
We then ran into the crowd which was having a commotion nearby.
Passing by an area of darkness, a form loomed up against my face.

Without knowing our current location, we jumped into a hole where lights could be seen.
It come to our surprise that the hole was steep which seemed like a lunatic frenzy type of slide.
As some grotesque shape of wire that had a barbed edges, was making me in acute discomfort.
Both of us reached the ending of the slide.
However, we landed lying flat crumpled on the ground, on top of one another.
We moaned and groaned as though life had been unjust for us.

Universal Studio Experience❤

2011-07-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

I hopped into the boat together with my friend while the boat went into a lunatic frenzy, causing a position of acute discomfort for all of us. My friend and I on a wild, hysterical note on board. The boat went ascending and descending. The trip was about five minutes long. After we alighted from the boat, our legs turned wobbly. We tried the next ride while we were lumbering through the underground tunnel which was actually a haunted house in the Universal Studios. Both of us discussed about our feelings about the Cyclone ride. We rode before we headed for the haunted house. We felt that the atmosphere was uncanny. It surely was a great experience we had at the Studios. The restaurant was a haven into which we crept like animals.

For the ensuing days, my friend and I remembered in a flashback those comical incidents when we put our lives in jeopardy. For the first time we took the most horrifying roller coaster ride in Singapore. The roller coaster, Cyclone, is extremely high about 10 storeys. Roller coaster were my frailty actually. It was a wonder that I did not shriek out of my fear, feeling that the seat would almost be hurl off the coaster.

Losing An Important Item❤

2011-07-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

It was during a tour in Korea that I encountered a rather unpleasant and traumatic experience. Upon arrival at the hotel, while we were doing our check-in process, my best friend saw a group of girls who happened to be our classmates passing by us. One of the girls among the group liked my boyfriend. She was evidently glad to know that we lived in the same hotel as them.

The next day, we started with our breakfast, then proceeded with a series of shopping and watching classical plays at a theatre inside the shopping mall. We bought up a considerable amount of souvenirs for our friends, family members and relatives. The most exciting part was when we headed off for skiing which was located behind the hotel. Before I entered the fun place, I went to change into my suit. Unexpectedly, that same group of girls I met was in the toilet as well. Suddenly, they tripped me and I fell flat onto the floor. The next second two of the girls from the group helped me up, it could be both of them did not want me to disgrace myself. That moment I thought the other two girls were just fooling me. Dashing out of the toilet, I pretended they did not exist. I tired out my stunts while skiing off the slope. Without knowing, I bumped into someone and I fell. Luckily I did not get hurt or injured. We ended off with dinner at the restaurant in the hotel before adjourning to our respective rooms.

Subsequent to my bath, I found out that I lost my precious item which was a necklace, a special gift from my boyfriend. I knew that if I lost it, he surely would get angry and would start to ignore me. I thought I lost it at the skiing area when we were skiing in the afternoon. Without proper analysis of the cause of the loss, I went to the skiing area knowing despite the fact that there are an impending snow storm. The area was cordoned off, I still went into that area. While I am walking up the slope, I encountered series of snow storm while searching it for hours. Despair overwhelmed me. Due to the extreme cold of weather, I fainted flat onto the ground of snow patch. Before I drifted into unconsciousness, I felt someone from behind riding a snowmobile towards my direction.

When I regained my consciousness, I found myself lying in the sick-bay in the hotel. My best friend sat beside the bed waiting for me to awake, after I awoke I asked her where did my boyfriend went. She said, "Oh! He went to canteen to purchase some drinks". Following that, she told me that they found the necklace. It was James, my boyfriend, who found it. She also told me how he found it. It was when they went for a search for me in the hotel and James overheard from that group of girls conversation, discussing about the necklace that he gave it to me at the cafe, level2. He snatched it back from them and scolded them furiously. James came back holding a cup of coffee on his hands. My best friend left the room, James sat down, stretching out his hand to me. I opened up his fist - it came to my surprise as the necklace lay steadily on his palm. I quickly gave him a hug. I did not blame those girls who stole the necklace. After all, if it was not because of this incident, I would not know how much he cared for me.

Peer Pressure❤

2011-07-16T00:28:00.001+08:00

It was the perfect place to cool down, clearing my mind and ignoring the presence of others. Lying on the school field, I was unaware of someone who had sat down beside me. Surprisingly, both of us had struck up a good conversation. Her name was Amy and after she befriended me, she introduced her cliques to me. My first impression of them was good and decent. One of them even invited me to her birthday party at her mansion. I was overwhelmed by the kindness and sincere friendliness extended to me by the cliques. Whenever I was with them, I felt so wanted that my loneliness was no longer existing...

I managed to attend this party that was held by one of Amy's friends. There were performances with dance and singing. It was very crowded, one of them invited me to a dance at the hall. After the dance, both of us went back to our seats respectively, suddenly he took out something out from his bag, distributing it to the whole group. I was also offered. But Amy came to rescue me by helping me to eat it, knowing that I was too appalled by that tasting of consumption activity.

My heart began to stir ; my mind became confused. After much observation, I was certain that I had mixed around with a group of drug addicts! It was to my utter shock that the friendly and caring cliques that I knew were actually drug addicts and pushers. My heart began to thump fast and perspiration began to flow down my forehead. I could sense that something was amiss. It put me in a terrible dilemma - whether or not to stay on with this cliques? To quit them, I could save myself from such hazardous temptation. To join them would mean I become a drug addict but I had friendship. I was at a total loss.

School resumed after three days. For a certain period of time, Amy was absent from school. I was puzzled and out of curiosity, I went to her apartment to look for her. It came to my surprise that the people living there did not recognize this person. When I was about to leave, the door opened and someone shouted for me. She was an old lady. Tears flowed down her cheeks. I walked towards her to comfort her while she stretched out her hands to pass me something. It seemed to be a letter. The old lady said the letter was left by Amy for me. I left the apartment, found a cafe nearby and I started to read the letter that was indeed written by Amy.

The letter was about Amy's personal life, she felt regretful to be together with the drug addicts. Because she was caught and sentenced into jailed for 8years for consuming drugs. She was one of my good friends in school, I felt upset and disappointed. After this incident I went to the prison to visit her. She is hale and hearty in her appearance. I lost contact with the drug addicts who were Amy's friend. Peer pressure really could make someone changed. Amy could not resist the temptation and she chose the wrong path. Luckily, I did otherwise.

Beach volleyball ❤

2011-07-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

The breeze had picked up the momentum since the morning. The supporters who were sitting in the spectators area watched in tranquillity after the match being resumed. It was time for all those hard work of my agonising training to shine for those few minutes which I thought was what seemed like an eternity. The match began with a good opponent served. Suddenly, ominous and dark foaming clouds appeared right above where the match took place. The spectators who viewed the match were having a hard time to control their heartbeats as they kept on palpitating, I could feel how important the match is to for everyone. The scary and eager looks of knowing which team would win were clearly shown on their faces.

The ball landed above me, I tried ways to catch it so that it would not land onto the ground. Just as despair set in, I crumbled down onto the sandy ground. To my surprise I managed to save the ball. It bounced up to the sky. The sound when the ball touched my hands was loud enough for everyone to hear. It was honed from five – seven years of experienced playing volleyball on the beach. My partner happened to hit it back to the opponent on time. The ball landed straight with monstrous force onto the sandy ground. My partner and I squealed with delight that we won the finals of beach volleyball match. There was a commotion with claps and hooray! Without any second my partner and I went hale and hearty from the result. Even though, we are restless and tired. "Practice makes perfect." This is what I learned from the match.

Mistakes!

2011-07-01T20:56:00.001+08:00

The sun was going to set while I was having a drink with my friend at a road side café, it was peace and tranquillity. Both of us were planning about our next move for after we are done with our schooling. Discussion came to an end between us. Both of us went into the computer zone where we can access to any website. While the page is loading, it came to my surprised that our aims in the future are actually similar. Our future job is that both of us could settle down one day in any of the highly exquisite, hotel and facilities management where inside of the hotel looks royal and grand with expensive display and having the best facilities in the urban city areas ever.

I remembered clearly that when I was studying at a polytechnic back then, I overheard one of the professors naming out some famous places and the basic knowledge that we should had have to get into the hotel and facilities management. I shared some to my friend and we planned out the next move or destination that both of us shall head to. My friend, Steph, suggested we should keep a look out for a suitable course where it might be useful for that specific job that we aiming for, to have a better knowing and understanding about what the course exactly is all about. Knowing that, that day when we went out to have a drink it is actually the National Day being held at the new National Stadium and even more the café we visited is just nearby. It was during the night time, where some roads are being blocked by the road police for roads performance. The noises had picked up the momentum since the performance begins. Suddenly I came across this course which is very attracting and useful for my future job. Without any second thoughts, I browsed through it and I clicked onto the mains for more details.

The price of it seems to be expensive to afford, but it was the best and attractive ones among the other four where it has cute and awesome graphics and convince words they uses to advertise. “WATCH OUT !” said Steph. Someone who is herculean fell onto the table that we are using. Everything dropped onto the ground. However I managed to rescue the laptop, which I was using. Accidently I pressed onto the course that I am not willing for. Trying many ways to undo it but it failed me, it remains at the same page over and over again. Full of disappointment and discourage. After this incident of errors being made by my carelessness, I am more aware of my actions towards any matter.

Apart you from my lifestyles❤

2011-06-17T16:41:00.000+08:00

The bright side is when you did the correct thing in your life.

This photo was taken on the causeway to M'sia.

A city of the entrance since long I visited after CNY.

I miss it. Those memories I had in that particular place at my hometown.

Even though, after 1months of birth I was brought to S'pore.

"Cousins and Grandparents"

Celebration of my grandfather 70th birthday.

All of them are younger than me. Heehee^^ Felt so evil.

Of course, I went for the Class Chalet(15 june) because I am the one who is organizing it.

I like the part when my group and I invaded the chalet.

*jokes jokes*

Maybe I should forget the past and live on with a better lifestyles.

After what has happened on that day.

We did not went to the beach because it is quite far from our area.

Thanks to Jc who managed to come over. Heehee^^

However there's still a lot of left over foods. Poor thing.

Yesterday went out with Esther for a movie and some chat.

Did found out a lot of thing from her but not her and him.

I'm not that kind of person who want to interfere.

Some stuff should be avoidable instead of finding out what's happening.

Went to watch "Super8" it's not a good movie, ending a bit no sense.

After movie went to CafeCartel to find Nick, saw Austin and Dave.

So have a seat and chat with them before I left with Hui Qing.

Heehee^^ He's a nice guy after all.

Random ~ Test ~ LollipopF ~

2011-04-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

I just like this scenery, watching the sun set. Hahaha.

Once again, today I'm so upset my tears nearly fall onto my cheeks.

I just do not know why things have gone this way.

Being a student this is not I wanted. I just want their respect.

How simple is that? And they can't even give us?

They just care about the TOPs student! PRIORITY AGAIN!

All of this is CRAP! Everyone has the equal ability and strength.

Don't judges us by MARKS! I HATE IT! It is just UNFAIR!

I admit that I did not put in all my effort for this Bridge Knowledge test.

No matter what is the results I will still accept it.

Because it is the fact that I failed. I know it very best roughly how much I score.

Even though, we spent all the time in revising in the morning or so.

On this test. I think we should enjoyed what we have gone through.

Losing or winning is not a matter. It is the process that's matter.

First day of chasing, I miss out the welcoming of them at the airport.

But I welcome them outside their hotel. Heehee ~

From afternoon 2plus to evening 8plus. I guessed.

LollipopF did not go for rehearsal and shopping, instead they camp in the hotel.

They had their dinner at long beach seafood.

I left early, due to my house location. It's quite far from the city area.

He is that so called "Hitler" that we saw at the hotel.

I was very fortunate that I watch the E-awards "LIVE" instead of TV.

Thanks to Nicole for the extra tickets.

Last Saturday, Jasmine called me.

She asked me whether if I am able to attend the concert.

Of course. I said YES. After that, I quickly rush down by taking a cab.

In the end, I realized I did not take my wallet.

Luckily, I took the $ 30. If not dead meat.

Ok, carry on. I was sitting with Jasmine while we split into 3 different ways.

Happy happy ~ :)

Of course, I went for their autograph session :)

It was held at IMM, I woke up quite early.

About 5plus, then 6plus I cab down to IMM.

I was so frustrated that I couldn't get a cab.

I had quite a lot of fun with ex-fans club fans.

OMG ! SOOCHE GET A HUG FROM XIAOYU !

I didn't get the chance to shake hands with William, sad sad.

After IMM we headed down to NTU.

NTU is huge and big, we nearly get lost in finding the auditorium.

Last night, is their last show at Nanyang Uni.

That night is my last seen when they left.

Haish~ I didn't see them off at the airport. Cause I might broke out.

No lah, because I have school.

Hopefully they can come again soon.

I received their news saying that they reached Taiwan. Heehee~

Happy happy ~

All photos will be upload to WRETCH... You all can view at there ...

Don't wait for things to happen, make it happen.

2011-03-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we can choose to do the rights and the wrongs.

Last time I used to do a lot of wrong things.

I even cheated in one of the tests during primary school years.

So naughty. Immature.

However, some people are just too lucky to get caught for cheating.

In the end they get higher marks than any one else.

It's unfair for the rest that put in so much effort into those tests/exams.

I always believe in karma.

Most of the time I'm the one who always let go of the relationship,
so that other girls that have the worth can appreciate it.
Cause I know that if we're together the relationship won't last long.
Even though I thought that way,
my heart will still feel hurt when I see them together.
Laughing, having fun and sadness with one another.
After more and more hang outs,
eventually some one will definitely going to be left out.
So why not I start the first step, so that no1 will gets hurt ?
If he is really mine, in the end I will still can win his heart back.
Instead of stealing it from friends.

Recently I've been thinking about this problem,
it really troubles me a lot. Making my head getting bigger and bigger.
Last time we used to chat using sms or even face to face.
Now you do not have the guts to talk to me, without a single word from your mouth.
Avoiding and chat with other girls for your own convenient.
And even have the eye contact with that girl, which I suspected she likes you.
I get hurts easily when you did all those thing in front of me.
But why ? Seeking my attention or you have chosen her instead of me?
Or you think that friendship is better than relationship?
All of these is a mystery and I knew it is all base on my conclusion.
No evidence to proof whether I am correct.

I admit that I jealous for those who can find their another true half.

Because they can share their thoughts between themselves.
During special events, they can accompany one another with a cheerful face.
Valentine's Day, Christmas Day .... ext ....
Going through the difficulties and happiness, overcome stress and problems.
Not trying to despo here. Unlikely someone.

Okay, I shall end here. Need to sleep early. Tomorrow is a tiring day for me. Nights.

Movie marathon ~

2011-03-19T22:56:00.004+08:00

童眼(The Child's Eye)

导演：彭顺彭发
主演：杨丞琳余文乐江若琳
类型：视频恐怖
上映时间： 2010
上传时间： 2010-12-08

国家/地区：港台

对白语言：国语

蕾梦娜和姐姐(Ramona and Beezus)

导演： Elizabeth Allen
主演：乔伊·金赛琳娜·戈麦斯约翰·考伯特布丽姬·穆娜金妮弗·古德温乔什·杜哈明吴珊卓
类型：视频喜剧高清科幻
上映时间： 2010
上传时间： 2011-03-09
国家/地区：欧美
对白语言：英语

割爱( Love Cuts )

导演：李世雄
主演：郑惠玉何家劲姚蕙敏
类型：视频剧情
上映时间： 2010
上传时间： 2011-01-07
国家/地区：其他
对白语言：国语

魔法师的学徒(The Sorcerer's Apprentice)

导演：乔·德特杜巴
主演：尼古拉斯·凯奇杰伊·巴鲁切尔阿尔弗雷德·莫里纳
类型：视频高清科幻动作
上映时间： 2010
上传时间： 2011-01-24
国家/地区：欧美
对白语言：英语

十六个愿望(16 wishes)

导演： Peter·DeLuise
主演：黛比·莱恩让·卢克·比洛多
类型：视频剧情
上映时间： 2010
上传时间： 2010-11-26
国家/地区：欧美
对白语言：英语

死亡游戏乐园(Death Game Park)

导演：山本俊辅

主演：松坂桃李井上正大真野惠里菜加藤庆佑佐佐木希相武纱季石黑英雄

类型：视频剧情

上映时间： 2010

上传时间： 2011-01-08

国家/地区：日韩

对白语言：日语

神奇侠侣

导演：谷德昭
主演：古天乐吴君如文章杜汶泽
类型：视频喜剧
上映时间： 2011
上传时间： 2011-03-01
国家/地区：港台
对白语言：国语
内容来源：盛世骄阳

A long waiting process.

2011-03-18T00:51:00.001+08:00

Now & Forever.

For some things, it still can remain the same but as for others it might changed.

Feelings changes when time past day by day, every second, every minutes.

However, some people felt that it is not a necessary to change.

Because their feelings towards it remains stable and calm,

not even the obstacle can blow them down.

Take an example of 棒棒堂 (Lollipop).

I like them since 2006 until now 2011,

it is a miracle that my feelings for them is still there.

Sometimes I still will neglect them aside,

but that does not mean I stop supporting and like them.

Deep down in the heart sometimes I also will misses them.

Waiting for the day to come talk face to face with them.

I only can know their abouts through news (internet) and album (how they feel).

~Album of Lollipop~

1) Gyashan

2) Gyashan - Limited Edition

3) I am Legend

4) Lollipop's I am Legend + Choc7's Sonic Youth

5) Lollipop F's 四度空間 (album)

6) Colorful Lollipop

7) Colorful Lollipop - Special Edition (finding)

8) Summer's First Experience

9) I am Legend 2009 ASIA TOUR Special Issue

10) Brown Sugar Macchiato - OST

11) The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries (Limited Edition) - OST (finding)

12) The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries - OST

13) The Dream Embarks - Sparkling Taipei Arena Concert

I remember our random conversations that would go on for hours. Now, we don't even say "hi" to each other.

2011-03-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

My feelings is just like this necklaces, complicated, messy and heavy when wearing.

Sometimes I do not know which path to head, the path that I actually want to go.

If you do not have any aim, somewhere in the open field you will get lost.

Things will turned unless when you realized that's no point of doing.

No fullest potential or motive in doing it.

Day by day, everyone will definitely encounter some obstacle or problem.

We will think twice before making that right choice,

because when we're thinking we will tend to be afraid of the outcome would it be wrong or bad.

Choice will starts to get messy, having a wrong direction.

As the above following happens, stress will eventually increases without knowing.

Therefore, more and more burden will be carried on us.

Life still have to goes on with all this happens on us. Because this is LIFE.

Recently I really consumed quite a lot of chocolate into my body.

No wonder I grew fats by 2kg.

Last time I hardly have a bite on chocolate.

Until they bought chocolate for me as a birthday gift.

I just realized that I do not look nice growing plum. Felt a bit disgusted.

A success in another way ...

2011-03-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

I never thought that time flies so fast. 5months has past with noticing it and I grew more tan than before. TOO MUCH SUNLIGHT ! Tomorrow is the last training sessions and the actual competition being held at nee soon camp site. OMG !!! Army camp site. All of our trainings on drill that we started since last year November will result whether we will get gold awards for the company tomorrow. I admit as a GB girl I slacked a lot after the last year batch of seniors steps down. I'm not fit to be a drill trainer. I regretted showing my CCA juniors conflicts among sec4 girls in front of them. All this time, practices, misunderstanding happened. I will withdraw from the crowd, I will stop being an extra between they two and stay put as a normal GB girl. I just want everything to be the same like before, the attitude and strength. After tomorrow, everything will be back to normal just like before. I hope after the competition tomorrow everyone in the company will learn the lesson from one another including myself. GET GOLD AWARDS AND THAT'S IT FOR SEC4. LAST LAP!

Recently people from my surroundings felt very stressed on studies and others things. For me the most stress thing was the results I get for Term1. These few days I have been troubled, not troubled, thinking of my CCA, relationship and studies. CCA, I put so much effort into it not a single person appreciate it. Sometimes I just felt I'm the extra among the everyone. I regretted to quit volleyball as my CCA, if I never quit I won't encounter this kind of problems. In the past things happened to be going very well but recently things just happened to turn as bad as it could be. I just do not know what I am doing and aiming for. As for relationship, just like what I've said before. Both of them seems to have some kind of eye contact, it makes me more curious about it. Even thought, at the surface both of them pretend to be a stranger not knowing one other. Some thing is wrong between both of them. I decided to withdraw from the love triangle. Studies is the very most that I am concern on. I'm happy that I pass the two most important subject for Term1 but I failed the rest of the subject. Cry and nagging won't help to improve, might as well I keep my mouth shut and do some real stuff. I really need a second chance and support.

Wake up call ???

2011-03-09T20:29:00.001+08:00

I failed all my confidence subjects but passed my unexpected subjects which I failed most often -.- After receiving my TA1 results, I cried. I get straights 4U instead of passing (MT- 44%, Amath - 36.2%, Science - 41% and d&t - 47% ) For the very first time I failed MT, Science and d&t. Too many U grade, I HATE U grade. I scolded Mr.Cheong (my form teacher) because he scolded me -.- Is this a wake up call for me ? Seriously I did quite badly for this term assessment, I also not sure why. Lack of study or because I quit tuition ? But I wonder why I cried after taking my TA1 results and get scolding from Mr.Cheong -.- I should be happy though. Because as you can see I pass EL - 60.3% , Math - 83.9% & Combined Humanities - 57.1% (unexpected subjects I pass but I failed all my confidence subjects). Sometimes things can be out of control, an unexpected results will happened in the face. Will I have a second chance ?

I’m not being cold, I’m just being calm to everything around me.

2011-03-02T23:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes people felt that friends is more closer than parent. I agreed. For me, my parent tend to heck care my feelings. No matter is relationship or friendship. They did not question me what's the happening in school or what so ever. They always thought I am those gangster kid, if I am really one of them I won't even get promoted to NA. Without knowing what time I finishes school, when is my CCA day or having extra lessons and ext. Almost everyday I stay back in school either is for extra classes or CCA training, all of this is not what I wanted or being scheduled by me. Can't they spared a thought for me? Sometimes I really felt to being in a jail, trapped by metal bars all around me. Monday & Thursday ; AMath lesson till 4.30pm and 5.05pm. Tuesday, Friday & Saturday; CCA day and drill trainings. My only break is on Wednesday & Sunday, next week onwards I don't even have Wednesday as a break. AMath remedial will occupied Wednesday. How great is it. Everyday I reached home around evening, because of these stuff. They thought I went out to play straight after school instead of heading home ! Their after school refers to around 2plus. HELLO ! What you expect ?! I still in lower sec ?! GROW UP please. One day I will be drowned by all your words.

I felt a nervous when I went up to her, holding that specialized name-tag "yinxuan". My heart pumps so fast than before. I can't faced her at first, cause I will thought that she would not forgive me for quitting the job by returning my name-tag to her. In the end, one of my senior accompany me to talk to her. I told her everything, how come I wanted to quit and ext. She said, "Don't come and find me. I don't have money to return you. It's okay you just hold onto the name-tag. You can come back and work anytime you want, cartel will give you a warm welcome. Consider of working again." It surprised me. First time I heard sentence like that from her. I thought she will scold me or something but it turns out to be nice sentence. I have settled everything with cartel, I hope cartel will earned more money for now. Heehee ~ I will definitely miss cartel and those people who are working.

Ms. Jami Tan & Mr. Lawrence Ling ceremony.

Photos.

Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak, sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.

2011-03-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

At first I thought that I will do quite well for my TA1, but after looking through all my results. Everything turns upside down. I failed all my confidential subjects, even CHINESE & CHEMISTRY ! Why ? Is it because I did not have enough studies or I did not take it seriously ? I nearly cried out when Ms.Jacklyn Kong said I failed my CHEMISTRY and EVEN I get lower than AhGwen. What really has happened with me ?! How come things have gone this way ? No matter is studies or Co-curricular activities. ARGH ! I felt so UPSET over those results I achieved.

Every time when I do something, I will thought of giving up. 三分钟热度。Or maybe I keep on failing that's why. The thing is that I can't find any motivation for doing anything. Example; studying. What's the aim of studying ? For the seek of parents or the laws that government made ? Sometimes I even cried or get upset for not knowing my aims/goals/purpose. Do you know how sad that can be ? It's like a sheep get lost in the open wide field without a Shepperd beside. Haish ~

How I wished I am the star, so that they won't neglect me.

2011-02-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

Just take this photo as an example, the sunlight only shines to some parts of the lake. If the lake covered with aqueous water represent as people and sunlight represent as success and reliability, is that mean only some part of the water can only be verify of being success and reliable by others ? How about those other parts of the aqueous water that are not being shined ? Why those people are not that brightly must be treated differently ? They are still human ? Am I right ? Sometimes, in life everything seems to be link together. No matter is thinking, actions, words or even environment. When you are thinking of something, definitely you will need to stare into space. Hahaha~ That sentence reminds me of that video. Okay, carry on ~ And that staring will eventually link to environment. I just want to share with you all, my feelings about how come people may view in a different angle. So, that is why you've to look into living thing or non- living around you. Heehee~

Sometimes you might cry because of someone or some things, but will your tears ever return after crying ? Of course not. Once the tears fall onto your cheek or lips, it will never return. Unless you collect them into a bottle and place it nicely into your display case. Crying non-stop is just like how some guys ditch their peeps. (No offense actually) But those peeps could not forget about the past, so that they can live on. "Waiting for you, is like waiting for the rain drop to fall." - my favorite phrase. Giving themselves so much trouble, unhappiness and a totally new lifestyle. Why not just dump everything into the deep sea, let all the underwater world creature to have a delicious meal? Just let go, let the nature take its course.

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

2011-02-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

Life is like a show, you have to put up many faces. E.g [ those people who are closer to you, you treat them good. But for those people who are like strangers to you, you treat them as though they are your enemy. ] Same goes for school life, there are many people showing double faces. E.g [ a student do not wants to share answer to his/her friend, that student who wants the answer will get fed up and argue with his/her friend. ] I just don't get it, why life is being so unfair to some people but being fair to those people who never put in any effort into it. Recently I received quite many feedback from my friends and classmates, they said that I very rough (like a boii in school). Hahaha ~ Seriously I did not noticed until someone told me, BUT I very friendly outside school. I think I should put it in the opposite way, friendly in school but rough outside. NONO! Cannot. It will be very weird.

Chinese New Year starts tomorrow, everyone is preparing to go overseas or visiting relatives houses. Due to the rain, there could be a high chance I might be swimming back home (m'sia). Hahaha~ Just joking. I can't wait to get angbao! Hope $$100 for Singapore, RM400 for Malaysia. I pity those people who bought their train tickets, because some areas of the track is flooded it has been blocked. Therefore, they have to closed. Haish, luckily I'm going by car. Hope by the time I left house the rain stopped, so that I can reached home without any droplets on the car. I need to leave Singapore for 4days, because of this I can't go down CafeCartel to help out. I felt so guilty. Hope they could manage during those days, EARN MORE MONEY of course. Heehee~ GO CAFECARTEL. Moral support from me.

Nowadays the weather is getting colder and colder, if not it's very hot. People out there all around the globe should take care themselves and don't fall into the trap of sickness so easily. Wear more clothes and DRINK MORE H2O. You might not get well that fast like before. Bring umbrella when its raining and mini fan when its shiny brightly. It might help you from getting ill. Heehee~ HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR once again. Thanks for the gift and blessing that you all gave me and everything. I love you, AS A FRIEND only. Hahaha, I will cherish it. ^.^ takecare during holiday and ENJOY IT. HAVE FUN !

A boring life.

2011-01-15T22:45:00.002+08:00

"A new year, with new thing. "

HaRlo, people. Yo, my last post is on 1Jan. And now, it's already 15Jan (third week on the month). As you all know, this year is the RABBIT year. Chinese says this year might have lesser disasters compared to last year, because Rabbit is much more timid, not so fierce as Tiger. Hahaha ~ Adults -.- "HAPPY NEW YEAR" to everyone. Hahahaha ~ And Happy Chinese New Year to Chinese for the upcoming major event. Prepare your money and go for CNY clothing and ext ext ext ... at the best price. Hahaha ~ Maybe this year I won't be staying in S'pore, unlike last year. Don't know where to head for CNY lunar dinner, KL or hometown ? So troublesome. Why Malaysia so big ? Haiz... Don't know how CNY and my birthday to be like. I sense it will be totally bored.
Recently I felt a boredom in my daily life, its like I seek no future no aim no nothing. When I do something, I can't do it with my fullest or best. Haish ~ Now, my daily life is all about STUDYING & DOING OF DRILL. One week has seven days, 3 days do drill, 5 days studying. Wow ~ What a no life. AHHH !!! SIANZ !!! I shall stop here, it's a short post though. Take care everyone. Have fun, enjoy life.

Sometimes you can't just see by appearance.

2011-01-01T03:04:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's life. No matter what you did on that day, the next day when you wake up it will still be the same old thing happened or did on the day before. LIFE ! It will happen non-stop, sun till night , night till sun. Life will change so does human beings. Human begins will grow from young to old, pretty to ugly, ugly to pretty, fat to skinny, skinny to fat, short to tall. Everything is possible and unchangeable. FINALLY ! 2010 has ended, a new beginning for 2011. I can say that 2010 is not that "shuai", the previous year more "shuai". 2010 I failed in my relationship and friendship, I did not handled it properly. Rejected by a guy dunno for how many times, in the end of the year I broke up with a BASTARD. What's this? This is life! Slap by parent for 2times, handphone spoiled for the first time that is not my fault and did badly for my EOY. Did not do my very best. Haish ~ This year I didn't get any chance to see 棒棒堂. sobsob ):): Next year I won't teach anyone anything, because I sux in every subject. Haish ~ XAVIER HELP ME ! This sunday is my last day of working, I WILL DEFINITELY MISS THEM. Met new friends, no matter is the chef or those people working there. Heehee^^ Especially thanks to Sally & Austin for taking care of me. I LOVE YOU ALL ! Maybe I will go back one day to visit. 4th Jan is the starting of school, I heard that the new principal is real fierce. LOLS! Shall be careful of her. Haish ~ I should stop here. Its about 2.40am right now.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! A NEW YEAR TO START 2011 ! A OLD YEAR TO END 2010 ! FORGET EVERYTHING HAPPENED ON 2010, REMEMBER A NEW BEGINNING 2011 ! ❤

Birthday Treat

First Outing together ~

Old don't go, new one don't come ~

BRONZE ~ BETTER THAN NOTHING ~

2Couple

Strawberry ~

Full attendance.

JOB JOB JOB ~ ~ ~

Pictures can be erase or delete ... But how about those memories ???

2010-12-23T02:20:00.002+08:00

Singapore National Museum !

Which one is better ? Blue or Orange wrapper ? Of course BLUE lah. Hahaha~

Okay, let's time what time I can finish this blog post. Now is 1.21am. Heehee ~
Recently I completed two drama 死神少女 (Taiwan Drama)
& 刑警2010 (HongKong Drama). I took quite a long time to complete it
because I did not have much time spent with my lappy.

My supper ; Chocolate, Chocolate Banana & Brownie CheeseCake ...

Hmmm, I think this lappy is around 4-5years old. Not too sure also. I WANT A NEW LAPPY ! ~
Ahhh ~ That Xavier ah . He don't let me to blog. Ok, heck care him for awhile. Lols, I felt so bad.
I don't know what to say. Oh yah, I want to thanks that guy. THANKYOU AUSTIN !
If not you my hamster will be starving. Hahaha ~

Bestie Outing to SAKURA ~

Ok, yesterday I'm quite free because I have two days of OFF ! Which is Yesterday & Today.
Yesterday I took a 5hours nap, slept until very soundly like a piglet.
Actually I planned to go SAKURA for dinner, ended up parent had to wait for me to wake up.
Hahaha ~ Morning had breakfast/lunch at Bedok interchange,
dad headed home first because mum and I were like wandering around the area there.
Went to the newly opened shopping mall near the Bedok interchange,
inside the mall has everything except Cinema. Haish ~

VanVan birthday at E-Hub kbox ~

Mostly is restaurant, not much of selling clothes but there has KBOX,
musical instruments shop & the four famous Singapore line (all gathered there, I think is the same level).
Not as big as T1, 5storys, is long. Hahahaa ~ I failed at describing things.
After that, Mum and I took train back to Tampines pass by the KOI shop at interchange seriously
its a long queue. See finished we then headed to 800++ to have our legs massage and nails polish.

Two pair of pretty foot nails~

Took us about 1hour or so for everything to be done, thanks mummie for the accompany.
Roughly it's about this, later on going back to school to give a hand to the uniform auntie,
maybe lunch time meeting up two bestie. Haish ~ My 2day of off just gone like that. Sobsob.
╭∩╮（︶︿︶）╭∩╮！Hahaha ~ Just for fun. Shall stop here, I want to sleep a bit sleepy.
Good nights & good morning everyone. Hahahaa~ Take good care.

Future is not what you and I could control.

2010-12-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

Haish ~ I forgotten how to start a post. Shuts! Ok, try this. People around me thought that I've changed during this holiday, yes I did but not my inter-self I only changed with my appearance. It could be never seen one another for some time. Hahaha ~ I just realized the previous post I didn't wrote anything about the class chalet. Heehee ~ That day went to the chalet before going met Wenhao and the rest outside my work place, then took bus no.3 down. AhGwen went to meet shaokuang whatever his name is, she pangsei me and went to entertain him -.- Argh ~!! Accompany them to eat Fish&Co at ehub, walk walk then headed back to chalet. Play poker cards while Willy and the other 2 went home. Stood for awhile headed down to check out on food, no food then took train back to TM went over to my place and eat cakes ! heehee ~

December holiday is going to end soon, school going to reopen. How come this december holiday so short, I still have a lot of things I've not done yet. I only could say I didn't spent much money. OMG ! I not sure whether should I quit the job or stay put? Haish ~ So troublesome. I think I shall stop here, it's about time for me to get prepare for work. Heehee~ eNJOY your last 2weeks or so with your friends and especially family members. Tc.
December holiday photos : School field trip, exploring Singapore, meet up with friends ...

You won't know what I'm thinking. Cause you are not me.

2010-12-16T03:19:00.000+08:00

Haish~ I'm bored. Currently watching a HK series. Why my blog so dead?
Oh I know why, it's because I neglected it. It has been one week plus ever since
I blog my last post about the Ipoh trip. Heehee^^ Today I'm going to blog about
my CCA kaleo camp, relationship and lastly working experience. I shall start with
relationship first, follow by kaleo camp and working experience.

Even though there's faith & hope between us. I always think that both of us really is

a matched, but now I don't think. It might be because we are going too fast like

a bullet train. Maybe we should really discuss about this matter again.

It's like I don't like that kind of feeling. Argh ~ Why so troublesome ?! So annoying.

Suddenly felt no freedom. Just joking~ I WANT CHANGE PHONE !

WENHAO want trade ?! Heehee ~ Because of him, I skipped total of 2 birthdays outing.

Some more it's my close friend. "YiLing(021210) & JiaYee(131210)"

I want to apologies that I can't attend both birthday outing because of some one -.-
Sent them a message on their birthday. Hope their wishes will come true^^ Haish ~
I miss them. After the holiday started I didn't get a chance to meet them up. Haish ~
Kaleo Camp used up my 4days of holiday as it is a annual company camp after all.
Ah ~ I don't know what to write. Ok, erm ... In this camp I met a lot of kaleo from church,
some are quite handsome as well. Knew more about Lord through devotion
and reading of bible. Mainly is run here run there, play, have lots of fun suntanning.
My favorite in this camp is the last night where we get a chance to transform
into beauty while guys *ahem ahem* NORMAL. Ok, no offense. It's 2.54am right now,
waiting for my hair to be dry, having a chat conversation with Xavier. Lols.

Ok, lastly is my working experience. Have been nervous lately because

I'm learning how to do cashier and order taker. This coming Friday going to another

CafeCartel outlet to help out. Eeyer~ Some more their outlet the place is like so big.

Hope I can cope that day. ^^ Hahaha ~ I only can get 7/17 tampines cartel crew

members number -.- WT... so less... Ok, I shall stop here. Sooner or later my hair

is going to dry. Good night for me, good morning for you all. I WANT MY PAY !

only me who still have not get it. OMG ! TAOYAN ! Takecare, everyone. Tctc!

Heehee^^ I like my hair .

No matter where am I, I will think of you@@@

2010-12-07T02:36:00.000+08:00

Letting these blog to rot for almost 3weeks, however sometimes I'm really busy I will still dropped by come to visit it. So, you all still can tag or do whatever you like with my blog. After all this days of working, camping or even the trip to M'sia, all this really made me felt like crazy & busy. Hmmm, where should I start from ? I have quite a lot of things to type out in this post. Heehee^^ As usual, I've been working at my workplace, everything goes smoothly and steady. Except some of my clients get scolding from the manager including myself but WHO cares. We only cares about the MONEY we earned so hard for. Hahaha ~

Christmas is coming, my schedule is pack so tightly that I cannot meet up with my classmates and friends. OMG ! I forgotten something. Never it has past. Next shall be about the M'sia field trip, I really felt happy or should I say GLAD to be in this trip. I went for this trip is because I've not been going back to M'sia for almost like a year. Haish ~ So I want to take that time to explore M'sia. It's a good opportunity also right? No matter where am I, I still is one of the resident of M'sia holding the name as a M'sian. Had a lot of fun during this camp, I enjoyed this trip the most. Heehee^^

Because I experienced the most and beautiful view of M'sia. Okay, I shall say some history about myself. I'm a M'sian, after mummie give birth to me one month later, I was brought to S'g to grow as a PR. Sometimes I really want to change my spot as a S'porean but parents don't allow. I can't do anything about it also. Hmmmm, I guessed I shall stop here. It's quite late already, tomorrow I still have to wake up early.

The mood will affect your appearance to others, so must always stay happy and cheerful ^^

2010-11-21T02:56:00.000+08:00

Finally I have time to sit down, relax and post about my recently happening ... My blog seems so dead to me, no tag no visitors no nothing ... Just came back from work, waited for the free transport about 15minutes ... Today went for open house at school nobody to find when I'm in the hall ... All went MIA , not even those girls from my class ... Haish ... I'm the latest to arrive and first to leave the booth/school, once Gwen come and find me to have lunch or break whatever together ... Went home, change and everything then took bus down to interchange ... IT RAIN SO HEAVILY, but luckily around 3plus the rain stopped ... If not I no need to go home and change to work uniform ... Today I nearly late for work, I over slept for some reason ... So took taxi to work ... Haish ... 6bucks gone just like that ... SOME MORE I didn't received any pocket money today ... ARGH !!!

Didn't have much time to pack my Ipoh trip stuff ... Because I've been out for the whole day ... I only can say this upcoming trip will be fun, bored, exciting, dangerous and blah blah blah ... IT'S ALL ABOUT STUDYING ! INSTEAD OF RELAXING ! haish ... Never mind can get a chance to explore M'sia, I'm happy already ... Later on 5plus going to Daphane's house ... I still have lots of thing not done yet ... AND I do not know next week when I'm working ... EEEEE !!! Oh yah ... I forgotten ... I want to wish here at my blog for Mummie(2510) & Willy(2310) ... Heehee^^ Happy birthday to both of them ... Thanks for Mummie who brought me up so big ... I hope both of us won't argue about the job anymore or ever ... Hope her health and wealth will get stable, no illness, get much more money for the family ... As for Willy, thanks for being my friend and a listening ear who some times let me throw temper or whatever ... That's all for now, I will post again when I'm free after the Ipoh trip ... Heehee^^ Take care everyone ... Safety and health is always the first ...

COCONUT MISSES HIM !!! HAISH ... but he's not thinking of me ...

2010-11-14T21:24:00.003+08:00

Holidays has not goes so well for me also maybe some of you out there reading my blog right now ...

How should I put this, I'm not too sure whether is it a good thing or a bad thing that they let me to work ...
Although I have accepted the manager and could start working next week ...

But, after talking on the phone with that person for almost half an hour,

I reconsider about taking up this job ...

I'm really glad that she is always being there when I need help and she will becomes my listening ear ...
Thanks for everything that you have done and spoken to me on the phone,

as well as that *childish girl* who I have been hanging out with nowadays ...

These few days I has been thinking and thinking about this matter ...

"Why I made myself into such a difficult spot, no matter is friends, families, studies, CCAs or even relationship?" ...

Haish, I only could say that this path which I am going is faith/chosen by 老天爺

who gave or even created just for me ...

My path seems to or should I say always has lots of obstacle blocking my way

and making it looks darker than before ...

After hanging out with that girl "J" recently, we would chat about our life,

CCAs, relationship and friends ... I always go crazy like mad when I'm being with her ...

She always tell me about her past with her blah blah blah and blah blah blah ...

Sometimes she does ask me for permission before saying

because she afraid that I will mind her words and take it into heart ...

But I also told her that what is past already the past, if he love me he had early accept it ...

Starting I felt miserable and upset, but now I have no feelings toward that cold hearted person ...

Not cold actually, once I rewind those memories

when I'm with him those memories are just a little penny compared to J ...

After knowing all these I believed that he lied every word he says to me since the starting,

no offense to anyone especially that guy and J ...

Today at this time I will delete all those photos or even video that has him or even both of us in it ...

As expected, from him I guessed ...

I hope that everything will goes well and stable next week ... ^^

Maybe not going back to M'sia ... Haish ...

送给那个人；

我還是希望能說聲我愛你，不管以後是不是能夠在一起，我還是想大聲說我愛你

希望以後永遠在一起。。。我愛你

Trying to fly bit I can't find a way to @@@

2010-11-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today is the fifth day that I started reading the bible book,
because I need to complete my CCA assignment ... I still left 18 more verse to go ...
Had five days of coffee, today will be the last day of this week that I drink coffee ...
Have been staying up late, put midnight oil just because of this assignment ...
This morning went back to school to attend the excursion to Bt Timah around 11am ...
It's tiring and fun after all those jokes and lessons with my group members ...
I'm glad to have all the people in my group that I know, especially Densye and Daniel ...

Just now I'm shocked that I received the message which was sent by the Manager of that restaurant ...
I've get in the job, I told parents that I take up and accepted this job ...
I talked to them nicely and they gave me this kind of BULL SHIT reply ...
Who cares about their feelings, I have the rights to choose and take up this job ...
Even though I said so ... They still ignored me and give me negative replies ...
They don't even understand from the beginning why I wanted to pick up one of these jobs so quickly ...
If I no work = I have no money = I no need to eat = Cannot go out =
HOLIDAY WILL BECOME BORED TTM ...

I want to have more money because;
I want to have a happy and a enjoyable day on the 25th nov(mum's birthday),
next year spending ... N' levels fee, End of year trip, Prom Night & TaiWan trip ...
All of these need money ...
If they don't let me work, I will rot at home will not go down to help out at the stall ...
They scold me I will shout back or even run away from home ...
Why they don't thing and try to understand me ... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~
I thought parent should let their own children be happy but
why I don't see any happy moment in me instead sadness and anger ...
Why is it so hard to leave in this family ! I wish I was a boy !
They let brother work but why I can't ! Just because I am a girl ! BULL SHIT !

Hot sun is not the main sources, it's the cold windy air that I need the most ...

2010-11-10T19:25:00.000+08:00

Did not post for almost 4days but some how my blog still have visitor ... ^^ These few days I've been going out either is because of CCA or outings (Family/Friends) ... CCA it could be going down to ChildCare Centre to earn CIP hour or practices on drill for next year competition, so far I didn't join any of the practice ... Yesterday morning had drill practice, as usual ... After released I quickly rush to meet mummie at Prime, both of us took bus to TM ... While queuing up for Swensens saw Gwendolynn & Jelly walked pass me ... But both of them didn't saw me -.- So heartless ... That lunch mummie and I took only 20minutes to eat finished ... After eating went down to taxi stand to take taxi to ChildCare Centre... Late for about 5minutes ...
Meanwhile mummie took train down to Simei to repair her phone ... That phone repairing will be my next phone ... My current phone SUCKS ttm !!! ╭∩╮（︶︿︶）╭∩╮！

Done with Child care I went out with Dap, Reege, JiaYee, YiLing & Jessica ... Everyone except Esther ... Did not meet them at Tampines MRT station instead Suntec City, I lost my way when I arrived ... Totally forgotten that I've been there before, seems new to me everywhere ... STM ~ ~ ~ Need Dap to fetch me from where I am, standing at that same spot turning round and round like an idiot ... Haahaa ~ When to Esplanade, near to the sea area, found a place where we can slack and have fun ... After resting went to nearest food centre because we smelled delicious food, especially satay, on our way to Helix ...

So decided to have our snacks there ... I bought Chendol & Coconut Drink ... Heehee^^ Didn't follow them to Helix because I've to meet parent for dinner at airport ... Took a almost 1hr 45mins bus (36) to Airport at Esplanade, what a long ride ... Kena scolding by them for being late ... ):):): Today went to school to have a 10minutes GB meeting, after that brought Joline to 27 bus stop ...

Reached home get changed and headed to Vivo City with family ... Had our lunch before bringing them in to explore Resorts World ... Heehee^^ I must say today weather is so bright and shinning ... Making my skin growing darker and darker -.- Saw quite a few program today at the Resorts World ... I miss the moment when I'm there for Halloween and over nights ... Shall go into the Universal Studio at there next time round I go Sentosa ... Heehee^^

November Birthday Boii @@@!!! ~~~

2010-11-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

Heehee^^ A bit bored so decided to make this post ...
This month November there is two birthday boii ; WenHao & Willy ... (Double W)
WenHao (061110) ... Willy (231110) ... Lol ... I don't know how to start ...
Ok then, shall begin with a birthday song ...
*祝你生日快乐~ 这你生日快乐~
祝你生日快乐儿~ 祝你生日快乐~
Heehee ~ Happy Birhday to Wenhao & Happy Advance Birthday to Willy ~
Lols, a bit weird weird ... Hahahaha, never mind ...
老一岁了~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 祝你们的愿望全都实现~
Especially Willy ... Cause he has too many wishes ... :-P

WenHao~

Willy~

(I just realized inside my album don't have much WILLY TAN photo)

(WILLY TAN next year better take more photos!!~~~)

╭(╯3╰)╮(⊙o⊙)╭(╯3╰)╮

LOLLIPOP F - 四度空間 Si Du Kong Jian (Four-Dimensional Space)

2010-11-05T19:45:00.001+08:00

四度空间 - LOLLIPOP F
LRC:小王子QQ122121036

煜:旋律很电封杀我听觉
眼泪够咸却模糊了我的视觉
孤单全都是某一种幻觉
一拳就让它瓦解
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
四度空间
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
游走边缘
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
一秒之间
煜:You gonna crazy for the new life
犬:有句话你憋在心里说也说不出口
有些歌你看在眼里怎么看也看不懂
纬: 一个人一句抱歉
让空气不太新鲜
爱等着用完就被抛弃在路边
威:醒过来笑出来活着不算失败
煜:一万种规则换来一晚甜美的破坏
威: 别耍赖要就fight没人能说拜拜
煜:转个身就让自己crazy over
合:I can be the one
say you say you love me
跟我站在同一国别让自己太好过
I can be the one
say you say you hate me
略过决斗先让我做了再说
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
四度空间
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
游走边缘
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
一秒之间
煜:You gonna crazy for the new life
犬:能不能解决我们最根本的问题
问问才能治好我们骨子里的劣根性
纬: 别再说这样不是
别再说哪样不信
大哭大笑的自己才是我自己
威:醒过来笑出来活着不算失败
煜:一万种规则换来一晚甜美的破坏
威: 别耍赖要就fight没人能说拜拜
煜:转个身就让自己crazy over
合:I can be the one
say you say you love me
跟我站在同一国别让自己太好过
I can be the one
say you say you hate me
略过决斗先让我做了再说
crazy go crazy go crazy
犬:go go go crazy every every day
我们疯狂也很愚蠢
当你耗尽大量灵魂
没有人保证能不能得分
放弃森林我的眼中只有一棵树
Welcome to my crazy song
煜:旋律很电封杀我听觉
眼泪够咸却模糊了我的视觉
孤单全都是某一种幻觉
一拳就让它瓦解

合:I can be the one
say you say you love me
跟我站在同一国别让自己太好过
I can be the one
say you say you hate me
略过决斗先让我做了再说

合:crazy go crazy go crazy
四度空间
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
游走边缘
合:crazy go crazy go crazy
一秒之间
煜:You gonna back back back and welcome to my new life

Flames. Someday, I wish to be like a flame, burning but not hurt a person, if I can.

2010-11-05T16:30:00.001+08:00

Ever since school has ended, I've been slacking like nobody business.
Tired of studying, preparation for 2011, working and hanging out with friends.
I not sure why, how come I become like this in just one sudden glance.
Maybe its due to their words that they have said to me.
Yesterday night I had a really bad headache, slept at 7plus.
In my whole life of 15years I never do before going for a sleep this early.
Wondering why ? But I still can not find the answer behind it.
I just went to take a look at someone blog, I did not explore it for quite some time.
After reading some of her latest post about her own experience, I pity for her.
Or should I say, a girl who overcome all the unhappiness in her life by herself.
Until now she seems to be happy but deep inside her heart she felt unhappy.
Living in a good state. No matter is friends or families.
She was once the victim in the group, like me in the past.
Whenever I walked by her class, I will take a look at her.
To be sure she is right there sitting on her seat. Not get bullied by those guys.
Despite she is my senior, she still treats me as both of us is in a equal state.
Today I just realized I neglected my friends around my about.
Because I did not take their words or things serious, always gave them a fast replied.
Friends of my surroundings should know what am I saying.
Maybe you might be one of them that I neglected once before.
I'm not asking for anyone forgiveness by typing this post, I just want to shout this out.
If you felt that you are the one, just send me a msg or a cor.

Today;
Did not go down for work due to my bad headache.
Staying at home to rest, woke up at 1plus.
Either is wandering around the net or watch TV. Nothing special.
XAVIER ! YOU HAVE ANY NEW UPDATES ON SHOW &MOVIES ?
Maybe later downloading Audition back. Should I ?
I guessed I shall stay at home for this long term holiday.
Wait for friends to call me out and going to school for CCAs.
Haish ... Seriously life suck ...

Quotes @@@

2010-11-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

Don't be happy for a specific reason.

Because that happiness will end when the reason ends.

Try to be happy without any reason & you will be happy forever.

If an egg breaks due to outside force inside life ends!

If it breaks from inside! Life begins!

Great things always begin from inside. Try to make your inside good!

You never get a second chance to make a first impression &

you never born for the second time to make this life good so make it good now.

The great thing a little lamp can do which the big sun cannot do is,

it gives light at night. It shows, no one is superior by size but by purpose.

Education is best friend. An educated person is respected everywhere.

Education beats the beauty and the youth.

To be most successful in life, always forget the problems that you faced in life,

but never forget the lessons that those problems taught you!

Ups & downs, Unexpected results & problems are a part of life.

Never lose hope in any condition because the darkness of night always finishes with light of day.

Shakespeare said; I Always Feel Happy. You know why ?

I dont expect anything from anyone. Because expectations always hurt..!!

Fact; A tear burns hundred drops of blood when it comes out of an eye.

Crying for someone means your gradually dying for someone.

SO ALWAYS VALUE SOMEONES TEARS for you.

LIFE is like a river, which have many turns, so enjoy every turn,

because these turns never returns.

Psychological truth.. When a person cries due to happiness,

the 1st drop of tear come from the right eye but when the 1st drop come form the left eye,

its due to pain.

Holiday Have Started @@@

2010-11-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

Harlo, holiday has started and I still have not found any jobs ...
Today went with Joline to interview a job, really hope both of us can get into the job ...
If I really get into this job, I guess I won't go for CCA training during holidays ...
CCA really kills me, so far CCA take up all my (Tuesday,Some Friday & Saturday) ...
I was like what the ... go there slack only ... also not do drill ...

Plus I totally not in a good mood ... BECAUSE OF THEM ... They totally spoiled my day ...
Must I really go down to help out ? Don't go also won't die .
Say until if I go down, the stall will not busy . WTH ! I had enough .
I go outside work also can earn money what, why must go down help ? Irritating .
HOLIDAYS LE ~! GIVE ME A BREAK !
And not just these, both of them say about my results . I know my own results no need you all to tell me .
Say what I get 4th from the back ? I told them I did better than first semester they don't believe .
Failed ENGLISH MEANS DID BADLY AH ! If I did badly I won't get promoted .
"Haiyo ~ Confirm go ITE the year after . " WTF ! These not even call support . LOR !

One word both of you still don't believe me . What for I become your daughter .
Joline all this will answer all your question that you have asked me ...
Heehee^^ Finally I can shoot out all these rubbish ... CRABBY ~ CRABBY ~ CRABBY ~
Tomorrow going down to ChildCare once again to help out ... Earn more CIP points ...
Not going to plan much on this long term holiday ... All I need is to rest rest rest ~
I'm tired and sick of everything ...
"I heck care . I don't care . I choose to leave . I've made my stand clear . "
I shall stop here ... Will post again when I'm in a good mood ... Take care everyone out there ...

2010 : Is all about ;

Hatred, Jealousy, Selfish, Explore, Upset & Happy ...

Gwendolynn Birthday & Halloween @@@

2010-10-31T03:49:00.000+08:00

Heehee^^ Now it's 3.14am not sure when will I finish this post ...
Yesterday went out with Gwendolynn, Daphane & Namira
to celebrate Gwendolynn's birthday, at Changi Airport (T3) ...
Before the day the three of us except Gwendo went to Iceing Room,
to decorate her birthday cake ... Heehee^^ Mainly is Namira did all the decoration ...

When we are at the T3 we cut the cake, ate the food , took photos and play around ...
AND I saw that BLOODY BITCH at there ... How should I say this,
a primary school friend who do not want to recognize her good friend in front of her friends ...
SO THAT'S WHY I called her a Bitch ... Hahahahaha ~
I don't care her, she don't treat me as friend so I will treat her back in the same way ...

After eating, we took train down to Pasir Ris then walked to the nearest park ...
Had our picnic at the park instead at Marina Barrage ... Heehee^^
Stayed at the park until the three ah gong arrive ... Hahahaha ~
Because they took 1 hr ++ to meet us ... Saw the sky it's going to rain, so we packed our things ...
Before we left we went to toilet, came out from the toilet ... Suddenly it rains very big and loud ...
Stood outside , awhile later the rain stopped ... Went to the nearest carpark,
while the guys ownself take train back to Tampines ... Some how or rather,
Gwendolynn went left to eat dinner with her parent while Namira went back home ...

Met Double W outside TM mac, got in the car four of us headed down to Resorts World ...
Because there has the HALLOWEEN celebration ...
No one else wanna go, some more Dap don't want to stay at home ...

So I accompany her to Resorts World ... Walk here walk there ... Scream here scream there ...
AND MY BAG IS FULL OF COKE SMELL !!! DAPHANE YOU OWE ME ONE BAG ...

Took cub to JYSS at Resorts World ... STUPID cockroach scared me ...
Heehee^^ I shall stop here ... The time for now is 3.40am ... Heehee^^
Oh yah ! Happy Birthday to Gwendolynn too !
Previously I sent you a msg, so I won't type much here ... Heehee^^
Take care everyone especially for those who are sick or having camp ... ^^

Joy & Laughter @@@

2010-10-27T22:01:00.001+08:00

Yoyo ~ I'm back from a long day outside, window shopping, laughter & joy ...
Along with Gwendolynn, Joline, Jervin Ohuto, Keith & Shawn ...
Now my leg is aching ... Heehee^^ Headache seems to be back, as usual ...
Haish ... Today is promotion day , no school today but bro still have o'level ...
Go go go ! Fighting ! Fight Fight Fight !
Today actually suppose to be Family outing, but some how dad don't want to go out ...
So, I went out with Gwendolynn & Joline to interview at Mac ...
After filling up the application form, went down to Simei to repair my phone ...

Done chit chatting with the counter guy, found a hk cafe to have lunch ... Have a delicious meal ...
Took train down to town , met Jervin at @313 ... Walked to find Gwen leg band ...
The shop is closed so took train back to Tampines, before going back have a dessert at @313 ...
Joline and Jervin left the train at Bedok, while Gwendolynn & me left the train at Tampines ...
Both of us have no plan so we decided to go to Gwendolynn house slack ...
Slack for awhile , went back to Cs to meet up Keith & Shawn ... Haish ...
Slacking , playing, joking and blah blah blah ... And finally took bus back home ...

Tomorrow still have school but it's a trip to Discovery Center ...
Hope tomorrow will be a happy and enjoyable day ... Heehee^^ Camwar tomorrow ...

When three , (Gwen,90,me), of us at the hk cafe we chit chat alot ...

Finally all my question is solved, I should stay put as a single ...

Heehee^^ ...

When we chit chat my heart feels so hurt and pain ...

I don't know why ... But I just felt sad after hearing everything ...

Maybe is because I really care for him or so fro ...

I think I should not though too much, about this matter anymore ...

If I though some more, I will confirm won't be happy ...

I shall stay happy from now on, and making others happy ...

I want my table, my room back !!! lol !!!

Food but its plastic food ...

Photo album : LoNeLyGaL95

The day I question @@@

2010-10-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

Yo ! I regretted going to school today ... Because of him lah ... ):):):):
hahaha, NO lah , just joking ... Also not mainly because of him ...
Hmmm ... let me think ... This morning went to meet joline at cheers ...
Brought sesame street toy and bottle drinks together ... Chit chat ...
Lessons has becoming boring and boring this few days, as there is not much fun program held ...
This year post exam seems like its totally boring ttm ...

After school did not go for the Ipoh briefing at I-hub,
instead went out for lunch with xavier & joline they all at Mac ...
First time I ate finished my McSpicy Meal UP SIZE ... Heehee ^^
So unglamorous today in front of them ... Hahahaha , wash away what you all have saw ...
Shall wait for scolding tomorrow from Ms. Tham ...
Next time I shall not go to school just because of a boy ... Argh !!!

Tomorrow have CCA, haish ... Maybe is the last day of cca in the year ... 2hrs only ...
This coming wednesday is promotion day ... My mood is not good as before ...
I do not know why , but I just cannot wait until 1 Nov ...
Getting report bookm knowing about the results back ... Haish ~
Holiday is coming within 3days time, and I am still not done with parent about the job thing yet ...

Greedy Elephant ...

DAPHANE'S BIRTHDAY @@@

2010-10-24T04:38:00.000+08:00

It's 3.53am , early Sunday morning , I am still online ... WTF !
Yesterday went out with 3T1 Chinese girls to celebrate Daphane's birthday ...
Once again Kbox ... Heehee^^ Cause I've member card ... I WANT MORE POINT ...
Okay btw, I didn't bring aunt to tour around instead I left her at Chua Chu Kang
with the another aunt house to stay over night ... I feel so bad ...
However the day before I did, I brought her to Marina Baysands shopping mall ...

Met 3t1 girls at Pasir Ris platform , around 3pm ... Reached earlier than them ... -.-
The singing along session at Kbox was quite bored, cause none of us use mic ...
But we have a lot fun except DAPHANE ! she have sore throat so can't sing ...
The bill was about $151 ++ ... It's the same price at KSUITE !
If I knew earlier, I will suggest to them go Ksuite instead of Kbox ... Haish ....
After that went to whitesands to have our dinner, headed home from bus interchange bus 3 ...

2nd Product

advance birthday song

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Daphane ~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !

To: Dap,

Yo, heehee^^ when you read this, you should probably received my present by then ...

I hope you don't mind my wrapping style, quite ugly ...

If you break the thing which is inside you will definitely regretted ...

Cause I took a long time to make it ... Heehee^ No lah, just joking...

Just a few hours only ... JUST DON'T DROP IT ...

If it drop and break into pieces then you have to make back ...

Don't how you can call me, I can explain to you ... LOL ...

Haish, looks like my goal cannot be achieved ... I shall work hard next year ...

Did you have fun yesterday ??? Hahaha, you should ...

Just wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY ... GROW OLDER BY 1 YEARS OLD ...

May all your wishes come true ... Yah ...

I wrote this first cause tomorrow I might not have time ...

Later on going to have breakfast/lunch with aunt at Mum's place ... Haish ...
Have to wake up early, if not a missing case will happen ... jkjk ...
Before going I might go to Daphane's house to pass her, my DIY present ...
If she dropped that thing, she will definitely regret ... Hahahaha ^^
Because is COCONUT chan make one ... Using her billion of billion brain cells ...

HOLIDAY IS COMING WITHIN 1 WEEK TIME ... HORRAY ~~~~
Should I go M'sia or shall I stay at home sleeping from day to night ???
Maybe after 12 nov , cause brother is going to take o'levels examinations ...
Shall stop here ... I want sleep ... Tctc ... Nights to those who is still online ... No, its morning ...

1st product

2010-10-24T04:32:00.001+08:00

1st product

2nd product

3rd product

Considering in progress ~

Acceptable ???

2010-10-20T22:01:00.001+08:00

Wow ~ Hi to all my readers ... I'm back to my Spongee blog ~
Did not blog for quite sometime already, ever since I started revising my EOY ...
Now is 9pm sharp, parent not at home I felt so unsecured ... Haish ...
They left me behind and headed to M'sia (KL) for 4 days,
should be discussing something with aunt and uncle over there ... I guessed ...

I'm bored ... No one to chat with me , all shows awaiting for next episode ...
Heehee^^ Today I want to blog about my recent life, those things happened around me ...
Firstly, I want to introduce three shows to my readers ...
These three shows it's quite interesting and funny ...
1) 读心神探 (Every move you make) ; I like the effect on how they did the show,
learn more about how to solve problem and investigate cases using a different kind of methods ...
2)Playful Kiss (Korea Show) ... I LIKE THIS SHOW...
if you like this shows it means you also will fall in love into Kim Hyun Joong ... heehee^^
3) 宫心计2公主嫁到 ... About resilience, family united and so fro ...
4) 死神少女 ... Hahhahaha ... Almost all the male actor who act inside this show is so handsome ...

Especially PRINCE , Owodog, MaoDi (Prince Brother), Ya Lun and Ah Ben ...
This is the first time almost all the male actor is so handsome and charming ... Heehee^^
I'm so attracted by them ... All of them so talented and handsome ... Hahahha ...
Must watch must watch ~ ~ ~ Waiting for "The Child's Eye" to be on website ...
Okay that's all for movies/shows ...

Hmmm, this few days have been finding job that my parent are acceptable with ...
But somehow it did not work out to be as successful ... Anyone have job to intro ?
Haish ... End-Of-Year are over, those suffering days are finally over ...
However, there are more to come next year ... Those stress on studies ...
As expected, this year is not my year ... After seeing those results ...

Did quite badly for all subjects, almost all are not the results that I wanted ...
I really scared that I'm unable to get promoted to Sec4 next year,
because I stepped into the dangerous zone already ... All I can do is pray hard to get promoted ...
Haish ... Why everything that reaches to my hands, it will never be successfully accomplish ???
Coming friday has a inter UGs drill competition and next year has the GB drill competition ...
Preparing for both competition ... Tomorrow going to gb Childcare with joline ... hehe^^
So many things to do ... I guessed the upcoming holiday will be a busy one ...
Run here run there ... haish ...

Study Study AND Revision Revision @@@

2010-10-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

*Taken at Sentosa when I'm touring S'pore*

*Nice view at M'sia Genting *

*Marina BaySands, The Helix*

HaRlo to all my blog readers ...
It had been a long time since I have stopped posting on 3.10.10 ...
This few days I have been busying with my EOY ... Hehehe ^^
Therefore, I cannot post or online too often ... Recently, not tuition then it will be studying ...
It could be because of some reasons, I decided to work hard for my EOY ...
I cried, thought of the matter, all over again of the reasons but it still will not changed ...
So the only thing now is doing my really best for EOY, so that I will get promoted ...
Hahaha ~ My aim is to get top 15 in class ... Will it be possible ??? Hahaha, might be so ...
Yesterday is the Second day of examination, it is a success ...
Math & Chinese paper seems to be quite simple for me, but for SS I'm not that confident ...
50/50 I might pass ... Hahaha ~ ~ ~
Don't know why people by my surrounding are getting more serious and looking into this matter ...
Now is the time to study or revise ? But somehow it seems more or less revision ...
I could only say that this year it is pretty fast , in 1 month time or so it is HOLIDAY ...
hahaha ~ Time files so fast ... Can't wait for holiday to arrvie ...
I'm having break middle of the night now because I'm burning midnight oil on Geography ...
However, later on I'm taking NA math & CL ppr 2 ...
The worse part is it will be held in the hall ... Haish , getting pretty nervous ...
I shall stopped here ... Good luck to everyone who is taking exams ...
Sleep early ... And definitely take care as well if you are SICK !!! JIAYOU ~

Yumeiro Patissiere ; 2nd starting song

2010-10-03T19:08:00.000+08:00

what is, what is? what is love?

Could it be starting? Sweet romance.

Popping into my head over and over again.

I keep thinking of you.

When I'm asleep and when I'm awake.

Why am I so obsessed? Endless play.

Because I can't tell anyone

my feelings are on silent mode.

So it's bitter and sweet!

Baby baby! Each time our eyes meet

this pain in my chest keeps getting worse...

I don't understand!

Tell me, tell me! Why do I feel

like the the distance between us is slowly changing ?

Help me, help me! There's no turning back.

But where should I be heading to ?

What is, what is? What is love?

Start the countdown. Three, two , one !

This is probably it!? Sweet romance.

Honey- Kara MV

2010-09-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

If I I I didn't have you

I I I, without you

I I I wouldn't be able to live

My heart still flutters

when I see you, I tremble

Even though I want to pretend like I don't know

you can see the desire in my eyes

I can't breathe. I'm becoming sad

my illness is getting worse. it's hurting

It's because I like you too much. that's right

my heart wants you

My only honey honey honey

you have to turn around, honey honey honey

I've always wanted you and you only

Oh baby honey honey honey

my heart's honey honey honey

I'm sincerely looking at you and only you

came from heaven right here to save me

one touch that's all it takes to complete with you, no regrets

I need you by my side

I will love you long through day and night

deep inside I know you're mine

no more words kiss me goodnight

It's because I like you too much

that I turned into a fool

I only look at you. That's right

my heart wants you

My only honey honey honey

you have to turn around, honey honey honey

I've always wanted you and you only

Oh baby honey honey honey

my heart's honey honey honey

I'm sincerely looking at you and only you

If I I I didn't have you

I I I, without you

I I I wouldn't be able to live

My only honey honey honey

you have to turn around, honey honey honey

I've always wanted you and you only

Oh baby honey honey honey

my heart's honey honey honey

I'm sincerely looking at you and only you

If I I I didn't have you I I I

2010-09-26T19:14:00.002+08:00

I did not talk to you ...
I did not look at you ...
I turned away when I saw you ...
I stop thinking of you ...
I deleted your contact ...
I deleted all the message we shared ...
I deleted the photos we took ...
I threw away those things that you gave to me ...

because I do not want to flashback all those memories that I'm with you ...
Afraid I might fall in love with you again ...

2010-09-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

I regretted going to Normal Academic ...

2010-09-20T18:47:00.002+08:00

Tears is always falling down my cheeks ~

Should I become les ? Or stay put ?

2010-09-19T02:21:00.000+08:00

It's time for this ... BLOG BLOG BLOG ~ ~ ~
Weeks/months of slacking and resting ...
I might be starting after this coming week for my exam preparation ...
After all I am still a student, who attend school everyday ...
Oral starts end of this month while written paper starts starting of next month ...
OMG ~
This going to be a fast one, as it only need 2 weeks to complete all the papers ...
After that it is holiday, hmmmm ... I think I thought too far ...

English, Mother Tongue, Math(NA/A), Science(Chem/phy), D&T and (Geo/Ss) ...
9 subjects ; 9++ papers to be written ... Haish ...
Aiming for a higher grade for End Of Year because I want my trust back from them ...
Going this far is not what I want, I never ever thought coming this far before ...
That I can go up , pushing myself hard to this state ... I afraid I might fall ...
Hoping someone could grab me from the bottom but it will never happen ...
The feeling of it is like climbing up the mountain ,crossing the bridge ,jumping over obstacle ...
All those rubbish, it is really not a joking matter however a serious one ...
I could get hurt jumping, crossing, climbing over but I endure everything ...
BECAUSE OF THIS SENTENCE " EVERYTHING WILL BE GOOD FOR FUTURE . "
This is the fact of everything that I have done ... I cannot changed it ...

Few days ago or maybe right now, I have been thinking about this matter ...
It is the best solution among the worse or the better ?
Is to be coming a les, I have been asking for people surrounding me for opinion ...
However all the feedback that I get is all mostly negative ...
Or should I say becoming a les, will make my life more easier to live, without the hatred and so fro ...
Above are the real thoughts from my heart, you all might think is fake/surprise ...
Believe a not is up to you anyways ~

Friday went out with 3n1 Chinese girls to Ehub about 2plus for celebrating VanVan birthday ...
Happy birthday to VanVan, may all your wishes come true ...
Took taxi there, but took bus back from there ... I'M BROKE after spending so much money ...
Had lunch, came home and heard noises, slept on my living sofa instead of my bed ...
Not sure why, I forgotten the reason behind ...
Had CCA yesterday morning, did mostly DRILL ... MISTAKES ALL OVER ~
GET PROMOTED TO SERGEANT ~ HEHE^^
Went home to take a rest before going out to have lunch with Gwen & Nata ...
Did not go home, waited for wh and the rest to arrive ...
Maybe sometimes I should believe their words ... They are too secretive ...
Scrolled home with small steps, enjoying the wind and scenario of the place ...
Showered and cycled of with my piyo piyo to Daphane house ... Hehehe^^ PIYO PIYO ~
Had tuition around 9plus ... Quite tiring but who cares ... I LIKE IT ...
Tomorrow going to have two tuition ... Haish ~
It really will be a tiring day because both of us going for a evening swimming ...

September Holiday @@@

2010-09-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

Back ~ Today is the last day of the September holidays, haish ~ Sob Sob ~
It seems like a sudden blackout, or so ... It's over ... Game over ~
Although it's over but I enjoyed it the every moment during the holiday ...
Right from the beginning of the September holiday, which is 3rd Sept 2010 ...

Hanging out with family, friends, relatives and tuition teacher ...
Hahahaa ~ I can't believe that I had my tuition during the holiday ( Science ) ...
For me, this holiday is very special and meaningful ... I learned quite a lot while enjoying ...
Starting I thought this holiday is a disaster, however it turned up the another way round ...
Heehee ~ I'm glad that I can become a tour guide, guiding my relatives all around Singapore ...
To places like ;
Hometown (Tampines) shopping malls, Changi Airport (T2&3),
Sentosa (VivoCuty, TheMerlion, UnderWater World, Dolphin Lagoon), Helix Brigde(Marina Sand),
Boat Quay (Merlion, Brigde), Orchard (313,SAKURA) ...
Almost every places of the Singapore Attraction we went ... Heehee^^
Oh yah, I want to thanks those people who helped me to find the direction of the place ...
Seriously I grew darker again, suntanning, stood under the sun for 6hrs ++ ...
Trying to change my appearance so that others won't thought I'm a India maid or whatever ...

Last Saturday went to Resorts World with Daphane and her family ...
It's really a large crowd there ... Quite a sum of customers, tourist all around the world ...
Afternoon went the watched the "Voyage De La Vie" ... Amazing ...
Stay overnight there, while having dinner with them I felt so awkward ... Weird weird ~
Enjoyed the scenario outside the hotel, went to the garden to scroll before sleeping ...
When we reached the entrance of the hotel swimming pool, it's already locked ...
Cannot enter ... So sad, cannot see how is it look like ... Must be very cooling ...

Played around the room , explore , weight our mass and so for ...
Slept about 1plus, almost 2am ... While Daphane watching tv & played her lappy ...
I failed to ton until next morning, my whole body aches ...
Whole week I have been using my legs, non- stop ... Heehee ^^
I think Daphane slept about 6plus ... She not tired I guessed ...
Daphane even brought her school holiday assignment to complete ...
Had a lot of fun there ... After everything, about 1plus took cab back to Tampines ...
When to both our homes to put things, carry on went to Jesscia house to celebrate her birthday ...

Happy 15th Birthday To Jesscia & Esther ...

May both of your wishes come true ...

Yeah ~

Joke, play, sleep, cut cake ... Finished ... Went to Reegena's new house ...
She shifted house and she never inform me ... Sob sob ~ She so cruel ... (Hahahaha ...)
First one to left ... And now I'm here posting late at night ... Heehee ^^

It is MONDAY NOW ! SCHOOL STARTS ~ I will stop here , will post as soon as possible ...
Good nights ...
September holiday pictures ~

Random Things @@@

2010-09-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

Back ... Just completed BOOK6, now half way through BOOK 7 ... Heehee ...
When someone made a mistake, he/she should pay for the outcome ...
No matter what the person did, others should forgive that person ...
Hehehe ... I'm so random ... *When did I became so similar like Xavier?*

Have been on PLURK with Xavier, Axton and Mavis ... Hahhahaa ~ Joke joke joke ~
Just changed contact, those who have not receive my msg please ask from me ...^^
Hahahaa, I might consider to give to you anot ??? LOL!!!
This week is N'level but I'm not sure is it O'level ... If it is so, good luck to seniors ...
Especially him and him and him and him ... All guys in 5N1 !!! -.-

Today went for the NA math supplementary at school library , Mrs. Yeo late for class ...
Go through the holiday assignment, Indics, Trigo, Properties of Circle, Pythagoras' Theorem ...
Haish ... Suddenly felt that I'm so weak in math , it's the time to brush up ...

After that went out with Gwen to have lunch at Basement 1 ... Ximen TaiWan food ...
Shop shop shop ~ Shop for clothes and blah blah blah ~
Found one, flower dress pattern, I think I'm going to wear it tomorrow for family outing ...
Heehee, I'm so happy ... Can't wait to see them ...

Tomorrow grandma and her second son along with his wife is coming to Singapore ...
Hope she will bring one cousin of mine, if not I have nothing to say ...

realized I wasted $72++ on clothes and a bag ...

2010-09-05T16:54:00.000+08:00

Hihihi, I'm backed ... Post this for the sick of boredom at home ...
As expected , yesterday and today did not go out ... *Ahem Ahem* ...
OMG ! I forgotten what I had done yesterday and the day before ... Never mind ...

Shall not think of it anymore ... *NIGHTMARE* ... WW10 broke out ~

Today did not revise on any subjects, burning all my on9 movies through out the day ...
Canceled both today tuition (Math & Science),
if both teachers know the real reason they will kill me ... Heehee ~

Tomorrow maybe going for a hair cut,
I bet Xavier is laughing in front of his computer like mad right now ... Heehee ~
Should I reborn or should I curl up my hair ? So troublesome ...
Just then I realized I wasted $72++ on clothes and a bag ...
Guessed I will wait until December holiday to arrive, then purchase clothes and others for CNY ~
Tuesday going back school for supplementary, after that maybe going home ...
*Tuesday (7sept) ... Secondary 3NA math (3N1) supplementary ... 9am - 12nn ... Library Level 2 ...*

Wednesday going to pick up my grandma and uncle at the Train station , which I do not know where it is ...
Anyone know where the place is ??? Going to be their Singapore tour guide ...
I can predict that I will stand under the sun for quite some time again ...
Shall stop here ... Will post again ... Take care then ... Have fun ...

TWO MORE DAYS ! HOLIDAY !

2010-09-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

Uploading pictures in progress ... Haish ...
Early morning woke up by parent, accompany them to market ...
Hardly I woke up so early, after I left the house I watched the new HK series ...
Hahahahas ... NO NEW MOVIES ... sianz ...
WHY YUMEIRO PATISSERIE IS NOT OUT ??? Nevermind ...
Yesterday went out with 3Ts girl to Tm and Marina Barrage ... Two words for the outing ...
Sun tanning ... The sun is so shinny, shone onto our feet nearly burned ...

Waited at the bus-stop for almost half an - hour ... ARGH !!!

Play water ( like kids, splash on one another ), saw gabions ( wire cages containing small rocks ),
eat , window shopping ... Hhahaaa, I had a lot of fun with them ... Especially, YiLing ...
Reached home quite early about 10plus ++ luckily did not get any scolding from them ...

The next day which is today ... 1 september 2010 ...
Afternoon went out with Gwen, met her and her bf outside cinema ...
Walked to T1 , the Japanese foodcourt, to look for food ... heehee ...
Hungry cannot blame us ... Chat a lot of crap ... While waiting for the guys to arrive ...
Shop for clothes and stuff ... Did not buy anything, cause nothing seems to suit me ...
Saw Suhui's mum at FairPrice when we are heading towards a ATM machine ...

5plus++ bought our tickets for the movie "Grown Ups" ... The movie is totally a humor ...
After watching went to buy Bubble Tea ...
I was shocked when the guy told me "honeydew milk tea ah?" ... Hhahhaa ...
Walked home alone as usual, this time no one accompany me ... Haish ... ): sobsob ...
Just want to say this will not be the last post when I went into the self studying days/weeks ...
Cause not week is September holiday, will post as much as I can ... Hehehe ...

Shall stop here ... Take care ... Have fun ... TWO MORE DAYS ! HOLIDAY !
Photos updated on Wretch ...

BIRTHDAYS @@@

2010-08-30T21:28:00.002+08:00

Since Yumerio Patisserie is not out yet, I shall post on my blog ... I'M BORED ...
Heehee, firstly I wanna thank to Axie for giving me his KaiChou-wa sama masterpiece ...
It's very beautiful ... I like it ... THANKS AXIE ...
Today school went as usual, just that I failed my TA once again ... Haish ...
Re-test on this coming Thursday ... Gambateh for myself ...

After school went out with Gwen, ShiHui and Dap to buy Nira birthdays' present at TM ...
Took quite sometime to let Dap changed her mind to go with us ... Hahhaha ~ ~ ~
Today is Vivian Birthday while tomorrow is Nira birthday ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH OF YOU ... May all your wishes come true ...
Hahaha, one year older ... Growing as a big sister after all ...
For Vivian; I hope you and your "Carbon" will last long,
if have not stead find a opportunity to ask for it ... Or tell him that you like him and stuff ...
Maybe he will accept and stead with you, just a random guess ...
Thanks for being my classmates and CCAs friend for a period of time ... Stay happy & pretty ...

On the another hand, NAMIRA !!! Primary School friends ...
Known you for almost 2 years (090909), not included prisch ...
I'm so glad that I have you as my classmates ... Sometimes you cheer me up, when I'm sad ...
We share the joy together, share the laughter together, crazy together ...
Hope everything on your side will be successful and go well ...

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY VIVIAN & NIRA !!!

Tomorrow is Teacher's Day celebration , not going to go back Primary School ... Heehee ~

After celebration going out with 3Ts girls ... To window shopping and stuff ...

Therefore, Wednesday no school its a public holiday ... But have tuition during evening ...

Will not be staying at home ... Maybe going out with Gwendolynn to have fun ...

SungHa Jung@@@

2010-08-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

Nowadays, I am so into Sungha Jung song ... Hhehehe ~
Whenever I listen to his play, I felt so relaxing ... It really helps me to refresh my mind ...
As well as, forget about what I have done ...
That is why I kept on STM ... (Gwendo my answer to your question) ...

Today had CCA, annul sports' parade combine GB & BB with church people ...
As expected, did not won any prizes ... Haish ... Came back slept for 4hrs++ ...
My head still pain ... Headache in progress ~ ~ ~
I not sure tomorrow, can I even survive for the 4 hrs of tuition ...
I think after everything, my brain might gone black out ... Haish ...
End of next week is Sept holiday, not planning to go back hometown ...
Parents no time, need to practice DS1 with Sec2 ... That week is going to be bored ...
Study study study ... Study non-stop ... MY HEAD WILL BURST ... Hahahhaa ...

I do not know why,
but you makes me felt that you have left me alone behind for a period of time ...
LoNeLyGaL95 is back, being all alone by her own ...
She is not the girl from past but the future ... Whom aim is to go TaiWan ...
Although she used to cry, nag, action, selfish ... Blah blah blah ...
LoNeLyGaL willing to change her attitude ... Because she wants to be happy ...
She wants everyone from her surrounding to be cheerful ...
Mood swing might be the main excuse of being unhappy, last time ...

I believe in you from the very beginning,
but you did not give me any chances to explain the misunderstood between us ...
You left me without saying anything to me, not even a "good-bye" ...
It could be you respected my decision ... But I regretted saying it ... Do you know ?
Now everything is useless, there is no point for me to think of you anymore ...
Because you never ever like me, thought of me before once ...
If you stop by the river, I will not be there waiting for you ...
I will just stand by it looking into the water,
at my own reflection with tears falling onto my cheeks ...
I lost all my faith and confident ...
I shall sit in a dark old dusty cellar, waiting for my charm prince to appear ...

DoubleW @@@

2010-08-21T17:45:00.008+08:00

Tired ...

Food at Pasar Malam ...

Tampines Mall Entrance ~


Laura sad face ~ (Similar to Willy's sad face) ~

Weekend is here... Two days of resting... However it won't be that long... Yesterday had Science tuition at Dap house, before that we went to BigBookshop to purchase some stuff... After buying went to PasarMalam for a food hut... Brought quite a lot of food... Hehehe ~ So happy... FOOD ! Food really can make us more concentrate during tuition... Next time must bring food... Hehee ~ Walked home with Ms.Yeo... Thanks Cherie and Xavier for comforting me... Went out with DoubleW to TampinesMall because wh asked me wanna go out... Waited at Willy's void deck for about half an-hour or so, while waiting I chat on the phone with Gwendolynn & SuHui (Girls' talk)... Sorry girls that I troubled both of you again... Maybe I really thought too much... Haish... Ended up crying for no use... Nevermind... Walked to TampinesMall with doubleW... Eat, shop, eat, shop... Hahaha ~ Nothing special... Saw Kendrick and his family... While we are walking home, the atmosphere were like total different... I sense that something is wrong with Willy, he kept silence never say a single thing... A sad face after all... Wh went to make him happy but immediately his face changed back... Haish... I felt guilty... No matter what, Willy don't squeeze everything to yourself... If you really think I'm your friend, share it to me... Wh also ! Where is my contacts ??? I'm still waiting ~ Shall chiong homework later on, there will be Ss and Geogrophy(24.8.2010) test next week... Tomorrow early morning have Math tuition, after that going out... I'm bored... Exams is getting nearer is nearer... Now I can feel the stress already... Gambateh ~

I like the lyrics ... Hehee ~

STRESS @@@

2010-08-15T19:19:00.004+08:00

LoNeLyGaL95 has returned from her so called long weekend ...
Just two days only (Saturday & Sunday)... Hehehhe ~
I have been at home for this past few days, never go out with friends ...
Tuition is more important than going out right ??? o(╯□╰)o ...
Struggling with my Amath at home ... (TA TOPICS) ...
Finally today all the problem are solved during tuition ... ARGH !!!
Quite frustrated just now ... I cannot solve that simple Amath question ...
How fail am I ... OMG !!! I get lowest for that class test ... ╭(╯^╰)╮...

My brain almost gone case, now it seems like I can't store things inside ... Haish ...
August going to end soon only left with 2weeks2days, a lot of things I have not done yet ...
E.g (Gb International, Revision for all subjects, blah blah blah ...)
The feeling of staying at home revising, it's like the feeling in jail ...
Staring into the four ceiling when I totally don't understand the question ...
I nearly thought that have I become insane or something ... Like Xavier ... Hehehehe ~

This few months I do not know why this so called "officially blog" does not update anymore...
I heard from the customers that the shop is still open at Far East ,
but how come the BLOG is so dead ??? Is it because of the flood ???
The shop seems to be alright , shop helpers is there inside the shop working ...
BUT HOW COME THE BLOG HAS NO UPDATE ! WHAT IS GOING ON ?
Don't tell me that the blog crew went to occasion ? Last update from the is on June ...
However recently the tag-board on the blog is REFRESHED !
It seems like someone from the blog crew still go in for update ...
BUT WHY IS THERE NO UPDATE ON THE LATEST THINGS ! NCORE

Edited Version ;

I finally know how to let go,

the feeling towards you finally vanished thin air .

In this world there are lot of chances to find my another half .

I will continue to find my another half without you in my life .

We'll surely meet again

Everything that's reflected by your eyes ,

is it all just an illusion ?

I wonder how you feel ,

as you melt away in this entangling love

Take a look at this tainted scene ,

and the reason we're joined together .

Let's cling on to each other from our sadness

Isn't fine just like that ?

It'll be an unadorned beauty

Let's understand this, someday ...

That no matter where we go,

we'll surely meet again

5movies in 3days @@@

2010-08-10T11:52:00.000+08:00

"Vampires SUCK"

剧情介绍：

影片恶搞热门吸血鬼电影《暮色》，
名叫Becca的姑娘发现自己被两个男孩爱着，
一个吸血鬼、另一个是……
吉娃娃狗人（可怜的狼人就这么被恶搞了），
Becca除了要在他们之间作出选择，更要逃避有过分保护欲的父亲……

"BandAge"

剧情介绍：

影片围绕「LANDS」这支乐团，描写了乐团的成立，
以及在逐渐走向主流音乐顶峰中成员之间的友情、争执、解散。
以及寄梦于LANDS的经纪人和音乐制作人这些大人们的纠葛和欲望。
还有机缘巧合下和乐团有了交集的一名高中女生和成员之间的哀伤的错爱。
岩井俊二的脚本，大热门的音乐制作人•小林武史凭藉他...

"LastSong"

剧情介绍：

故事发生在美国北卡罗来纳的一个海边小镇，斯蒂夫（格雷戈·金尼尔饰）
因为醉心钢琴演奏在三年前和妻子金（凯利·普雷斯顿饰）离婚搬到了这里，
他们的女儿罗尼（麦莉·赛勒斯饰）认为父亲毁掉了整个家庭，
因此对他充满怨气，从不和他联系。由于斯蒂夫患上胃癌，
只有几个月的生命了，金强迫不知情的罗尼带着10岁的弟...

"Diary - Wimpy Kid"

剧情介绍：

影片改编自杰夫·金妮的畅销漫画小说，
故事的主人公是一个名叫格雷格的中学生，
他调皮又捣蛋，喜欢画画，他总是用涂鸦的方式写日记。
影片正是通过格雷格的涂鸦日记来讲述他的心路历程的。

"Au Revoir TaiPei"

剧情介绍：
华裔导演陈骏霖执导，本片获得柏林影展独立奖项「最佳亚洲电影奖」，
也获得台北市政府150万经费补助，张孝全、郭采洁主演。
恋爱的感觉，有时候，就像一杯咖啡、一首爵士乐或是一本书，
熟悉却又动人，它悄悄地来到身边，让寂寞的心跳开始有了温度…
小凯总是蹲坐在书店的一角，独自念着法语教材书，思念着远去巴黎念书...

NEGLECTED@@@

2010-08-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

Have not been updating my blog ... NEGLECTED it ...
When pet become weird in its action,
it is either because of master emotion or pet sickness ... hehehe ...
Learned it from the new HK drama show today ...
Hmmm ... what should I type today ... I don't know why but ...
Recently I have not been sleeping early ...
I have been going to bed around 2am like that ... HAISH ...
Exam is coming in 2 months time ... And now I can't even do amaths or chem quiz ...
So fed up ... I think this year my Taiwan trip is totally impossible ...
Just today I then realize I cannot forget of the past on my behavior towards people ...
Going to burn movie once again, for this 4 free days ...
A lot of new movies on the queue ... Hehehe ... Can't wait for it ...
After Aug10 which is on Wednesday, by then I can't go home late ...
Not because of parent it is because of the Ghost month ... Haish ... Sianzz ~~~
I have nothing to say ... MY CHINESE IS BECOMING WORSE ...

suhui birthday ...

2010-08-08T00:00:00.001+08:00

SUHUI ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ...

HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES WILL COME TRUE ...

DO WHATEVER YOU WANT ...

BE MORE MATURE ... NOT LIKE ME ...

PING PONG WITH YOUR LITTLE BRO...

LASTLY , FAITH IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP ...

12.00AM NOW ... MAKE A WISH ...

傳奇星大@@@

2010-08-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

傳奇星大探班！有范范和王子！小傑！andy哥喔！！！

「棒棒堂」 Lollipop 王子 Prince, 小傑 Liljay @ Vancouver Part 1 [HD]

Part 2 「棒棒堂」 Lollipop 王子 Prince, 小傑 Liljay @ Vancouver [HD]

Part 3 「棒棒堂」 Lollipop 王子 Prince, 小傑 Liljay @ Vancouver [HD]

[MV/HQ] Liljay 王子小傑 - 舞可取代 Wu Ke Qu Dai

I'M DONE !!! (～ o ～)~zZ

2010-08-01T20:34:00.001+08:00

For this weekend I have been at home looking at the clinging ...
I keep on thinking why I'm so angry about that stupid matter ...
Maybe it is because I cannot forget him or ...
Is that true friend of mine who I really appreciate ...
I just cannot believe she lie to me ... But now end up you lie to me ...
Why my life turned upside down when you said that sentence to me ???
And today ... Something fed up happened on me ...

I think I should explain everything to that one person ...
I know your blog the latest post is saying about me ...
Now I wanna return or so called reply to your post from here ...
I don't know you got realized about it last month ...
That the seating arrangement is 3by3 for our row ...
But now become 2by2 ... Everything is peace le ...
When the row of ours is 3by3 you tend to talk to ohuto ...
Then keep on never listen to class ...

Class test , you just wrote that few sentence then lay down on table ...
Just now when I saw your blog, I then know what have you been thinking ...
Not "people like change abit towards their attitude to you or what so ever …"
And you said " the other day , when she saw me , the face was like so moody like that…
and i ask her anything she is like still the same moody face ,
until she sees the other party .. reaction totally change :X " I suspect this is me ...
If it is me then I shall say ... you first time know me ah ...
Our three favorite sentence when we get angry ...
How many times you want me to tell you ,

showing moody face to you does not means I'm angry or what so ever ...
You also know recently a lot of things happened to me ah ...
I don't understand why you stand into my beautiful glass high heels (Cinderella that one) ...
Lastly , not we don't wanna share secrets with you ...
Is ... because when we are free you dunno run where ...
when you are free we also dunno run where ... its like we don't have time to share ...
You know you know ; Amaths , CCAs , Harriss , Natasha ... Blah blah blah ...

Maybe for the past few months or weeks ,
3 of us have been busying doing on our own stuff ...
It could be we never get a chance to go out more often like last time ...
But we are still best friends , correct ... “铁打的星星” ... Learn from tv ...
And gwendo I want you to take note of this ...
Suhui & I will also be at your side no matter what happen ...
If have anything happen to you ,
WE HOPE WE WILL BE THE FIRST PERSON TO KNOW ...
Not REGAN or NATASHA ... Not even Edmund or Harriissss ... Get it get it ...
Why I write until so long ah ??? Lols ... I just wanna say ...

I don't wanna quarrel with you anymore ... I want it to stop here ...
No no no no ~ Must quarrel if not no progress on our friendship ...
I forgotten what I wanna say ... Oh ... If want fight now its not a time to fight ...
Suhui birthday is coming ... I want her party to become successful ...
I guessed you also want bah ...
HO SU HUI ! If you locked me outside your house,
the next minute your main door will disappear ... I bring weapon ...
Ok that is all I wanna said ... PEACE ! NO WAR !

Hmmm ... 3days ???

2010-07-30T23:22:00.000+08:00

Haish ... I'm back ...
I do not know I did not post this blog for how many days ...
Hmmm ... 3days ??? I also not very sure about it ...
Hhehee ... Nevermind ... Shall talk about other things ...

Recently I don't know why ,
my parents have been taking a closer view or watching over me closely ...
Dap said, it could be I have been going more often than last year ...
Closer to those guys in my class ... Blah Blah Blah ...
Why my parents don't allow me go out with guys ??? So annoying ...
They treat every guys surrounding me like gangster ... WTH !
I thought kid nowadays immature how come now become Parents nowadays immature ...

HAISH ~ SO MANY THINGS TROUBLE ME ...
My burden becoming more and more heavy ...
WHO CAN HELP ME CARRY SOME ???
Today I just learned this from pitbull,
no matter what you doin life there is always consequences and outcome to it ...
While hearing I almost cried out ... Haish ...

Being lie or lie to others is not a good things to both parties ...
Another matter is recently I just found out that friend should trust each other correct ?
And must cherish the time with one another ... I did so ...
However ... I'm the victim at the end ...
At first I'm so happy about it when you said it to me ...
But after the discussion among the group I felt childish ,
how come I will believe in your ridiculous story ...
You lie to me without thinking the consequences ...
After I found out which of it is true , the own answer by my own, my heart break into pieces ...
Its like I put everything into it , nothing came out after all my effort ...

Now you broke our friendship and my relationship to him ...
No matter what one day I will give up on that idiot and I will continue to put a fake mask in my life ...

NO CCA = TOTALLY BORED !!!

2010-07-23T20:46:00.003+08:00

haRlo ... I'm bored ... Today and tomorrow no CCA ...
NO CCA = TOTALLY BORED !!! Haish ... I start to miss CCA ...
Hmmmm... Morning woke up late so did not meet them ... Haiyo ~
Kena sabo by doing pledge ... JOLINE LAU YOU OWE ME A KFC MEAL !!!
Lesson went smoothly only that , English lesson did held at canteen but in the library ...
╭(╯^╰)╮... End school, went to meet every sec2 for discussion at canteen ...
Met Daphane, Gwen, SuHui and blah blah blah ... For lunch at canteen ...
Hhahahaa ~ That plate of food I managed to eat within 1hr ...
Broke record ... *CLAPCLAP* ... Walked home with Dap ...
Rest for awhile at home then went out again to meet SuHui and Gwen for TEA ...

Waited for them outside school, quite boring ... Haish ...
While waiting I read the "Kaichou Wa Maid-sama" book5 ... Which I just brought ...
They came out from the school, saw a ahlian sitting at the voideck ... LOL !
Walked to Mac ... Once again did not saw that cashier guy ... Haish ... What a pity ...
After eating ... SuHui went straight home, while Gwen and I stroll to LAN find nata ...
Saw chuming gang at the bbt shop ... I think one them is jingjie ... lols ...
Meeting them tomorrow for LAN ... LOLS !!!! LAN I'M COMING ...
Walked home ... And now wondering around the net like ghost ... Haish ...
I'm bored ... Why today no1 come and chat with me ... 哼(ˉ(∞)ˉ)唧！！！

To: Anonymous .

I have been noticing you for quite some time ...

This few days,

you looked puzzle seem like there is some burden on your back ...

If you are still thinking about "that" thing ...

Stop whatever you are thinking and continue living ...

One sentence for you ...

"我从来没有怪过你，所以请你不用太在意我说什么。。。"

What has past is past ... Look forward but not backward ...

From: Coconut .

What I have said is said ,

I just want you to take note about that .

I also cannot do anything about it,

it is your decision also not mine .

Leaving me behind is not what I want from you .

It's all about you, (its all about you)

It's all about you, (its all about)

It's all about you, (its all about you)

It's all about you,

Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew,

So I told you with a smile its all about you,

Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too,

Said you made my life worthwhile its all about you,

And I would answer all your wishes,

If you asked me to,

But if you deny me one of the kisses,

Don't know what I'd do.

So hold me close and say three words like you used to do,

Dancing on the kitchen titles,

It's all about you.

And I would answer all your wishes,

If you asked me to,

But if you deny me one of the kisses,

Don't know what I'd do.

So hold me close and say three words like you used to do,

Dancing on the kitchen titles,

Yes you made my life worthwhile,

Said I told you with a smile,

It's all about you.

It's all about you, (its all about you)

It's all about you baby

Actually this year should be a happy and enjoyable year ...

2010-07-18T18:30:00.001+08:00

For the past few days, a lot of things happened to me ...
Actually this year should be a happy and enjoyable year ...
Because of some stupid and irritating people who causes me so much trouble ...
My year ended up stressful and deprived ... It's just like WTH !!!
School ... English lesson are separated into 2groups ... Haish ...
Maybe this will help me in improving my English ... I hope it really help ...
I can't make up my mind in school ... Or outside ???
Some people start to show me attitude ... What can I do ???
Exam is coming , I left only 1month plus or so to polish up all my subject ...

Which I think it's not enough at all ...I NEED TIME ...
Plus I have not even started doing my CCA batch work ... ╭∩╮（︶︿︶）╭∩╮...
Family members start to give me problem this and that !!! I hate it TTM ...
"Feel like may the peace" = SuHui(Butter) ... Haish ...
Had tuition this morning, Mateen nearly angry with me ...
Cause I did not listen to what he is saying ... What a nice weather to sleep ...
After tuition dap and I went to eat lunch at food court,
then went to Mac collect money from her brother ...

Walked to Century Square to purchase both puzzle each for our own display ...
WHO KNOWS HOW TO DO DIY PUZZLE FRAME ??? ARGH !!!
Took bus home, saw a Flea Market near my house area ...
How come this year so many flea market ??? Haish ...
Where is SuHui ??? 我要向你诉苦！！！你在哪里？？？ (╯﹏╰）。。。

To: calvin ...

Hahahhaa, today you departure off to Japan ...

I will miss you ...

Hhahahaa, I will watch over your gf half on you ...

Ask her come visit me more often ...

I can bring her out to tour S'pore... Hehhee ...

As you know, I don't wanna stay at home ...

I wish you can reach there on time, and safe ...

Do not get lost in Japan,

if you have chance definitely go out to explore !!!

And lastly, FASTER COME BACK ...

I WANNA SEE YOUR WEDDING !!! Hahahhaa ~

Take care .

Must comment on facebook and post blog or what so ever ... ❤

From: Coconut ...

How come my life became in a pain and terrify state ???

Maybe "LoNeLyGaL95", really suit me a lot ...

Things have not been doing well for me, in my life recently ...

I kept on thinking of those silly things ...

Thinking about how to solve all my problems ...

But nothing came out of my mind ...

I really don't know what to do ???

I'm scared that I will step into the wrong path,

that will lead me to a wrong life for my future ... ~~(╯﹏╰)~~

I'm sure I will miss you.

Everything that's reflected by your eyes,

is it all just an illusion ?

I wonder how you feel,

being caught in this entangling love.

Take a look at this tainted scene,

and the reason why we're connected.

Just relying on your sadness,

isn't it fine to be like that?

Your beauty doesn't rely on adornments,

and no matter where you'll be.

I'm sure I will meet you.

" Family Conflict " ...

2010-07-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

A post that I wanted to do it for a long time ...

" Family Conflict " ...

As the time fly past, my attitude and appearance changes ...

Does that means I become more ugly or mood swing had become worse ?

My parents did not accept both of it at all ...

They thought I had gone for the worst ...

Counseling is useless at the stage of this after all,

she told me everything to solve it but it did not turn out bad so far ...

I thought parents should trust their own children ???

But how come ???

Argument is not what I want ...

Being like that also not what I want ...

When you scold me I kept quiet, I did not shout back ...

I kept quiet wrong , I shout back wrong ???

Then you want me to do what, take knife and stab myself ???

And dead people cannot talk, hear and move ...

Maybe next time I will try this ...

It's useful after all ...

Unbelievable @@@

2010-07-14T20:26:00.003+08:00

haRlo , it has been 9 days for not posting on my blog ...
Tagboard and counter has been decreasing and decreasing ... Haish ...
Hope it will increase TTM after I blog this post ... Hehehe ...
Today I'm very free did not went for the PTP , tuition canceled ...
I guessed Ms. Kong is so fed up of me ... Hehehehe ~
That is why I have the time to post with my bare hands ...
So far school went smoothly , just that Mr. Ng changed my keychain design ...
Haish ... Until now I'm not sure whether the changed design is acceptable to pass ...
MY DESIGN IS ALMOST DONE ! YEAH ! I'M SO HAPPY .
During assembly when I saw you and her together ... It really made me jealous ...
Maybe I thought too much about it ... Hehehhee ~
Went out with Suhui to have our lunch at the sushi shop after school ...
After that went to put money into my bank account, now I ended up with ONLY $1.40 ...
And tomorrow I think I going to diet for the whole day ...
Walked to suhui's house to have dinner , saw Xinde and blah blah blah on the way ...

Haiyo ~ Did homework/ revision, had dinner together ...
HO SUHUI ! WHY CANNOT GO OUT AH !?! argh !!!
Father fetched me back home ... Kena scolding from him ...
Because mum called me ,but not him ... Hahhahaa ~ Finally we have news from her ...
Later going to chiong homework le ... Haish ... I'm bored ...
Someone please entertain me ... Tomorrow mum is backed ...
However I cannot go pick her ... So annoying ... ARGH !!!
On my way back from Suhui's house ... I contact my sister in-law ...
Hahahaha, not on purpose one ... Hope we can go out tour Singapore one day ...
Be my tour guide ... Hhahaha ... I WANNA GO ... erm erm erm ... I also not sure ...
I shall stopped here ... I will try to post one day when I'm free ... Take care ...

To: Him(devote reader).

hahahaha , lols ... The name a bit lame ...

I just wanna say if you need help a anything you can find me ...

Don't put yourself into a box without any doors ...

When I asked you why you left me behind ...

You just kept quiet without telling me what is the reason behind it ...

Do you know how I felt, I worried about you ...

Cause we are friends and classmate ...

Friends and classmates should help one another,

when there is a need to ...

And now I can sense that you are really stress on yourself,

I just wanna say don't stress your own up ...

You can share with me anything ...

I'm not that kind of big mouth person though ...

From : Coconut Chan

Without you there for me , I'm so not my own ...

You lied to me sometimes, so

I really cannot tell which sentence of yours is the truth ...

Today, this month your actions really surprised me ...

I can't believe you will do those kind of things ...

I know that you pretended not to know my presence...

And I know you respected my decision at the beginning ...

I really do not know what to do now ...

I cannot like you because I promised someone that I cannot love you anymore ...

Let's wait for the time to come ...

Cold Nostalgia❤

About an occasion when my best friend betrayed me ...

Storm.

Consequences of a matter ...

What a 'long' delay :)

Rainbow Sweetheart VS MY GIRL ~ !

Movies Of November ❤

Series Of Events During Holiday ...

Movie marathon 3 ❤ ~

冰雪公主 Ice Princess

暮色 Twilight

Ongoing Drama ❤ ~

尼基塔第一季 Nikita Season 1

尼基塔第二季 Nikita Season 2

Movie marathon 2 ❤ ~

Movie marathon 1 ❤ ~

足球尤物She's the Man

倒霉爱神Just My Luck

A Truth That Is Awaiting...

The Feelings Towards You Cannot Be Changed ...

One more week ...

Maybe It Is Destiny ...

My New Personal Room ...

The past and present ...

The TroubleSome Relative❤

A fragile bond.

Burdens & thoughts❤

Display❤

Grotesque Slide with odd surfaces❤

Universal Studio Experience❤

Losing An Important Item❤

Peer Pressure❤

Beach volleyball ❤

Mistakes!

Apart you from my lifestyles❤

Random ~ Test ~ LollipopF ~

Don't wait for things to happen, make it happen.

Movie marathon ~

A long waiting process.

I remember our random conversations that would go on for hours. Now, we don't even say "hi" to each other.

A success in another way ...

Wake up call ???

I’m not being cold, I’m just being calm to everything around me.

Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak, sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.

How I wished I am the star, so that they won't neglect me.

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

A boring life.

Sometimes you can't just see by appearance.

Pictures can be erase or delete ... But how about those memories ???

Singapore National Museum !

Which one is better ? Blue or Orange wrapper ? Of course BLUE lah. Hahaha~

Okay, let's time what time I can finish this blog post. Now is 1.21am. Heehee ~ Recently I completed two drama 死神少女 (Taiwan Drama) & 刑警2010 (HongKong Drama). I took quite a long time to complete itbecause I did not have much time spent with my lappy.

Future is not what you and I could control.

You won't know what I'm thinking. Cause you are not me.

No matter where am I, I will think of you@@@

The mood will affect your appearance to others, so must always stay happy and cheerful ^^

COCONUT MISSES HIM !!! HAISH ... but he's not thinking of me ...

Trying to fly bit I can't find a way to @@@

Hot sun is not the main sources, it's the cold windy air that I need the most ...

November Birthday Boii @@@!!! ~~~

LOLLIPOP F - 四度空間 Si Du Kong Jian (Four-Dimensional Space)

Flames. Someday, I wish to be like a flame, burning but not hurt a person, if I can.

Quotes @@@

Holiday Have Started @@@

Gwendolynn Birthday & Halloween @@@

Joy & Laughter @@@

The day I question @@@

DAPHANE'S BIRTHDAY @@@

1st product

Acceptable ???

Study Study AND Revision Revision @@@

Yumeiro Patissiere ; 2nd starting song

Honey- Kara MV

Should I become les ? Or stay put ?

September Holiday @@@

Random Things @@@

realized I wasted $72++ on clothes and a bag ...

TWO MORE DAYS ! HOLIDAY !

BIRTHDAYS @@@

SungHa Jung@@@

Okay, let's time what time I can finish this blog post. Now is 1.21am. Heehee ~
Recently I completed two drama 死神少女 (Taiwan Drama)
& 刑警2010 (HongKong Drama). I took quite a long time to complete it
because I did not have much time spent with my lappy.